I tell myself and everyone around me I’m fine. I’ll be okay.
They see a smiling face, but I’m screaming on the inside.
I try to be brave and hold myself together. Just for them.
Why would I let them see me cry? Or see the scars I wear from my own private war?
I couldn’t hurt them like that.
They care and would try to help. Plead with me, and shed tears too.
My pain is their pain so all that I can do
Is force a smile onto this face, a mask that hides the cries.
Be the rock I’ve always been for them, and keep up my disguise.
People are blinded by judgement
They can’t fathom things that are different.
Lashing out with hurtful words and jeering names
Although these words are acid to my heart
There are those that believe in me.
I’ve always been the strong one, Everybody’s shoulder to lean on.
That’s how I shall remain.
I cannot let them down.
I won’t be broken by hate.