Till now..
I got this text from my exgirlfriend. I don't know what she meant by that phrase but I guess it has something to do when we're still together.
WHEN WE WERE STILL TOGETHER..
I am Arthur, 18, good looking guy with hazel brown eyes that can give chills to your inner soul whenever you look at it. Yeah, Im confident with the way I look but you see, Im much more than just a boy who would use his looks to impress pretty girls and ask them out on a date. To be honest I have been inlove with the same girl ever since I was 13 and she's my girlfriend for 5 years now.
See that girl holding a book, yes, that beautiful girl wearing a baggy shirt and a pair of ripped jeans with her hair up on a bun. YES.bTHAT'S MY GIRL. Isn't she perfect? She's Lucy.
She's smilling at me, and wow, she makes me fall in love with her even more with that perfect curves of her lips. EVERYTIME.
"You're doing it again, STOP STARING AT ME WILL YOU?!", she said while laughing. That weird laugh gets me everytime.
I looked at her with so much intimacy in my eyes and I can tell she loves it when I give her this look.
"oohh,you're smiling. That smile made my heart jump out of my chest and see, you're holding it now", I said as I hold her hand.
"You and you're romanticism," she kissed me in the cheek and said "..I love you"
I never loved anyone like this before. I never loved anything in specific till she came into my life.
I met her in an old church near my parents' vacation house 5 years ago. I am not a religious boy but I love God more than anything. I was on my knees and praying to god that if He doesn't want me to die alone then He should let me meet the girl of my dreams. And in that moment I saw a girl in my age wearing a white baggy shirt that camouflages her young curves. She smiled at me and then suddenly a voice whispered to my ears,"SHE'S THE ONE"
Ever since, we would always go to church together and read a book or sometimes play pingpong at their house. She's amazing. We never really knew how our relationship started but it doesn't matter because we're together now.
OK,ENOUGH WITH THE FLASHBACK STORIES.
I looked at her eyes and all I can see is my own happiness reflecting through hers. I know that she can see the world in my eyes, a world that is immeasurable and that this world is for her. ONLY FOR HER.
"How long do you think you'll love me?" She looked at me confused,but then she answered..
"From the very first day I met you.." she dropped that phrase. I didn't know if there is a follow up sentence after that. She left me ambiguous with that thought. I got mad because I was being serious and she answered me like that. But then she smiled and I became soft again. Damn that perfect cute smile.
6 months after that, we had a fight.It was about a childhood friend of hers that started this issue. I saw them on a restaurant and I got mad. I thought she was cheating on me that's why I punched the guy on his face and shouted at Lucy's face that she cheated on me.
"I loved you, I loved you when no else would. I loved all your flaws. I thought we were fine. We were perfect. Why did you do this, what is he richer? Did he offer you the world?I could do that too." I said with tears in my eyes but she just stared at me. SHE ONLY WATCHED ME WHILE MY WORLD FALLS APART.
She grabbed my hand but I resist.
I run. For the first time in 5 years I turned my back on her. I turned my back at my world.
2 months passed and everytime I see her, it hurts. She would try to stare at me but I would always look away.
Was it wrong? Was it wrong that I didn't asked for her explanation?Could you blame me? I was hurt.
I heard from a common friend that the day I saw them was the day she told her friend to distance himself because she didn't want me to get jealous. She also said that Lucy moved to Canada where his Dad got his new job.
I can never see her again. I CAN NEVER SEE MY WORLD AGAIN. All I can do is pretend that Im still with her. Because of my abrupt approach,I lost her. I didn't let her explain. Our 5 year-relationship is now in a garbage can because of my stupidity.
7 years after..
"Art..I need to tell you something."
"Hey,dude,what is it?"
"You remember your ex?Lucy?"
"How can I forget that one that got away?"
"Well, she's getting married"
I was stunned for a minute then again,I run. I went to the old church where I first met her. I never loved anyone again after we broke up, still hoping that we could still have a chance together. I MEAN SHE'S THE ONE FOR ME. THAT'S WHAT THE VOICE SAID.
I saw her there. But,now,she's wearing a dress. She's different from the girl I used to hold hands before, the girl I would kiss goodnight to. She walked toward my direction and I could see tears forming in her precious eyes.
THAT HURT ME.SEEING HER LIKE THAT HURTS ME.
"Im getting married", she said while her tears finally falling form her eyes.
I can see pain, not tears.
PAIN IS WATCHING HER CRY AND ALL I CAN DO IS WATCH HER TEARS INEVITABLY FALLING THROUGH HER CHEEKS.
"I heard"
"My Dad, he needs this promotion and the only way to get it is to marry the son's boss"
"Im sorry to hear that" I can't say anything. I just stared at her. I WANT TO HUG HER. I WANT TO KISS HER PAIN AWAY BUT I CAN'T.
So I watched her turn her back on me..again.
The one that got away came back, and I let her go again.
That was the last time I saw her. AND THAT KILLS ME INSIDE.
Till now..
I got this text from my ex girlfriend.7 YEARS,4 MONTHS,2 WEEKS ever since we broke up.
I remembered the time that I asked her,"How long do you think you'll love me?"
Getting this text message hits me.THIS IS THE FOLLOW UP PHRASE TO THAT ANSWER "TILL NOW.."
