Speak Now (On Hold)

Frustrated I make my way outside and walk aimlessly down the sidewalk. Walking at night is a way to ease my mind and help me think things over. I have done it even as a small child. Whenever my parents and I would argue, I would take off and just walk for hours. At first my parents would worry and so my father would secretly follow me around to see where I was going. After they realized that I was only walking the same ten blocks over and over, they stopped worrying and just let me be. Sometimes I wish that I would just look over someday and see my dads old beat up truck creeping behind me. I admit that I hated it at the time but, now I have come to miss it greatly. How crazy is that? A twenty two year old grown man wishing to see his parents following him like a child. It's so hard to lose a parent. Let alone both of your parents and only at the young age of seventeen. If it wasn't for Landon to be there for me then my life would never be the way that it is now. I didn't want to step foot into that bakery after I lost my parents. It hurt me so badly that I felt as if I was dead. I didn't leave the apartment for a whole month. It was Landon that took care of the business and ran things for the first year. That's exactly why I give him a profit from my earnings each month. He saved the bakery and my life.

Then I met Cendence. She was so sweet, caring, fun and outgoing. She made me feel like everything was ok again. Between my parents deaths and Hailey cheating on me. The three months before I met Cendence were dreadful. Now.. Now, I sometimes feel as if Cendence is so careless, selfish, distant and stuck on her appearance. It's so hard to see her this way and I have tried so hard to get the old Cendence back. Sometimes I feel as if I just want to give up. The old Kade would've. The young Kade. Not now. I treasure my parents teachings and advice more now that I ever did. They taught me to fight for the right things in life and that you can't just give up on someone because they aren't exactly what you want them to be. You both have to grow and learn. That's what my parents did.

It takes me a while to realize it but, I have circled the block that Alluring Locks sits on at least five times. It's like something inside of me is pulling me to it and I don't want to just pass it up. Perhaps it's the memory of my mother. She used to go there every week when I was a child. She loved that place and the people that worked there. I used to walk there every week and stop in to say hello to the ladies and to ask for change to get ice cream. The ladies loved me as a young teenage boy. They used to talk and giggle about how cute I was. I had to admit that I enjoyed it quite a bit. My mother would always just smile at me with those bright blue eyes shining and throw me some change to go next door to Gails to get ice cream. It was my favorite place to get dessert and my parents always stopped there after we had our cookouts on Tuesdays. I miss those days and that place. Gails closed about three years back because they weren't getting enough business. It's a shame because I haven't found another place quite as good. Kendell Bakery was always a close second in my opinion.

"Ok Madison. I'll see-"

I hear from a distant as two figures step out the front door of Alluring Locks. I look more closely and sure enough there she is in all of her beauty smiling from ear to ear as she leans in and gives a tall female with short black hair a quick hug. My heart instantly starts beating faster at the sight of her. I truly almost forgot for the moment that she worked there. I was right then. The business card was hers. She pulls away from the girl and runs her hand through her hair as she bends down and picks up a large bag. The bag looks quite heavy as she struggles to throw it over her shoulder. She waves to her friend one last time and takes off walking down the sidewalk.

Shit! Do I talk to her? No! I shouldn't. It wouldn't be right. I only watch for another few seconds before I make my decision to walk the other way. The way that I feel when I see her is unbelievable and I have no idea what I would do or say if we met again. Something inside of me tells me that I could get myself into a lot of trouble with her. I get a few feet away when suddenly I hear something hit the ground. I swiftly turn behind me to see that Madison has crossed the street and she dropped her whole bag on the ground.

Without a second thought I hurry down the sidewalk and come to her aide. She quickly looks up when she hears me approach her. She does a quick second glance and then her body relaxes a bit when she sees that I'm only there to help her. I place my hand on hers to stop her from picking things up. I can tell by the way that her body stiffens that me touching her has made her nervous. It even makes me nervous. I pull my hand away from hers embarrassed and then grab for the shampoo bottles. "I got it. Let me help you." I insist.