Okay so no this is not a poem thing that I normally do.
This is a real thing, something that I have thought about for a very long time. Even through I am only young, my life has been sh!t. I don't like where I am. I don't like Who I am. I just hate myself.
I tried this once before, but there was a little girl over the road from me...I didn't want to end my life and make hers hell by her watching me die. So I didn't do it. I promised people that I would be strong for them. I even promised myself that I wouldn't do this. But it's too much for me.
Today is my grandfathers birthday. He died of cancer two years ago. I never got to say goodbye. I've lost so many people, that I just can't take this anymore. I just want this pain to stop. I want this to end. So I will make this end today.
I am sorry that I let you guys- My brothers, sisters and bestfriends- down. You guys were always there for me no matter what. I tried to be there for you. Nothing can change what I am feeling. Face it. I am doomed to die soon.
I want people to smile and stay strong, when I am gone. Rejoice and smile for your lives. Please forget about me. Please...
You guys never had to be there for me yet you were. And for that I thankyou so much.
Now I ask you guys, one more favour. When I am gone, please please carry on with your lives and forget about me. You guys gave so much to me. Now I want to give something back. Which is letting you live a life where I am not there bringing you guys down.
Thankyou so much for being there for me. I will always love you guys...
But now I am sorry..but this is goodbye
-Emily D N M- Goodbye... </3
Remember I love you..Always have and always will
- @DallyD - R.I.P. ... </3
And everyone else that has been there for me...
My friend might be on..Um if she is...um...well...tell her 'I will be home' Please don't tell her anything... thankyou....