Chapter 1

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Chapter 1- After School Escapade

It's funny how words differ in significance for everybody. 

When a simple greeting of hello can mean a full day of happiness to someone while it can also mean nothing to another. When you hear the words 'it's okay', how would it mean for you?  For me it's simple. It's the sole reason I've kept hold onto sanity.

I don't know if the time that I can live past what happened that fated day would come. It's just, I don't know who to trust. What is real? What is fake? All of it, I don't have a freaking clue anymore!

It's like everything was just a dream. A freaking nightmare I had called life and the only way to wake up from it is to end it.

I don't know. Sometimes, I think maybe everything will be fine if I die but then I'd tell myself its okay and think about how my parents would feel if I did that. But thinking about my parents brings back the idea that they're the core reason why I'm feeling this way in the first place. If only they'd stop meddling. They love me yes. But to a fault. It's just so wrong. Didn't they realize that what they think would prevent me from hurting will only hurt me more? It's just. It sucks. All in all, ending my life, it's just not worth it. I wouldn't give those bitches that kind of satisfaction.

I can feel my lips tugging into a derisive smile just by thinking about everyone. Huh. So that's why everybody's been nice to me all along. All for money. Well, how fucked up is that? 

I thought those things happen only in books.

I heaved a long suffering sigh. Atleast i'm at my favorite park. Whenever I feel like being alone, I go here and head straight for a swing.

At first I stay out in our private beach but then mom and dad wouldn't give me a break which leads me to hate them more so in the end I decided to go for a walk and found this kind of deserted park just a couple of blocks away from home. I think since then going here after school became a routine.

The tranquility of the place's just what i need. The gentle but cold embrace of air against my skin, the soft orange-ish glow of the sun that's about to leave the sky, the soothing sound of rustling of the leaves and movement through the woods are enough to calm my nerves. I did a double take.

wait-what? movements? isn't the woods off-limits?

I squinted, trying to recognize the figure creeping through the woods. My eyes widen a fraction. No doubt about it.

It's Mathias.

The guy who wouldn't leave me alone for the last eight months, who always have a smile plaster on his face and loved by everyone for being him. The kind of person you would think never have any problems. That's why I hate him.

What the hell is he thinking? Those off-limits signs are as big as a house! Okay, not really. But it's still huge like you can still read it in a mile radius. maybe it's as big as a window! A window? Yep, A window.

Heaving another sigh i told myself its none of my business. Why should i care anyway? it's not like he cares about me. I should just mind my own bussiness.

Yeah right.

Groaning aloud, i stood up and followed him through the woods. I was at the entrance of the woods when that 3 ft sign made me hesitate. Oh fuck it. I'm going in. Giving it one last look heck even a pat in its back, I half-jog, half-walk to keep up with him.

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We've been walking for ten minutes, well me a couple of trees behind him but not the point. Where is he going?

I was in the act of picking a peculiar looking rock with the shape of a sea urchin-Oh Wow. How peculiar is that?- when he suddenly stopped. Panicked, I quickly ducked to the bushes. Shit. He knows. Oh Snap. Oh Snap. I'm so screwed. Slowly, I peeked through the bushes and saw him look sideways. Then slowly like torture, as if he had all the time in the world, he glanced back.

Right at me.  

This is it Jessica! Get ready. I was waiting for him to stormed right at me and demand what the hell am I doing going crazed stalker at him but then his gaze just lingered for a moment then looked back straight ahead. Relieved, I released the air I didn't realize I was holding and looked more closely. You have to be stupid not to realize that before him is a cliff. What now?

Curious as to what will happen next, I watch his every movement with great interest. Possibilities as to what he's going to do keep on entering my mind. Just then a thought I didn't want to acknowledge hit me suddenly with much vigor that i choked. What if he's about to commit suicide?

Eyes wide with that realization, I didn't even have time to blink when without further ado, he jumped and was out of my sight.

Forever.

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