I stop my eyes from searching for you.
I breathe in and out to stop my heart from beating so furiously when I see you.
I stop my lips from calling to you.
I stop my eyes from caressing your smile
I keep my hands from reaching out to yours
I keep my spirits high and the tears from falling down
When in truth I wanna hold your hand … so badly.
I wanna cry n scream
I wanna be held in your arms
I want you to ask “ did you miss me?” the way you do with a smile.
I want you to say “its ok”
I want to say the words out loud “I like you”
I want it to be ‘ok’ to like you
I just wanna hold your hand…
But that can't happen .
So don’t look at me with those eyes that say you want me
Don’t smile at me with your smile
Don’t invite the hope.
I just wanna…
Cause if you do, ill become so pitiful
Do you want so badly to make me pitiful?
I cant reach out to you. I can't even dream of it
You are not a man to me…
You can't be…
My tears spilling out of me
My dreams far from reality
And still I want you close to me
My yearning sprouts out demands
The offer still stands.
I wanna hold your hand…