Thinking
What does thinking bring?
Thinking brings happiness
Like playing board games with your parents
Your first kiss
Falling in love
But then again... Thinking also brings pain
Like watching your parents constantly fight
Being left behind by the person you first kissed
Falling out of love
Thinking
What does thinking bring?
Thinking makes you think of friend
Hanging out
Talking
Venting
But... Then you start to think...
"Do they really care?"
"Do they just listen so they have stories to tell about me?"
"Do they really want me around?"
"Why do they like me?"
"Where did so many of my friends go?"
Thinking
Sitting there at night
Eyes closed
You start to wonder
What if...?
What if...?
How...?
Why...?
Why me...?
You start to wonder
And realize
Every single flaw you have
And how much you really hate being yourself
That maybe if you were different you could make your life better
Your family's lives
Even your friend
Thinking
Who am I?
Why am I me?
Thinking
Why does anyone tolerate me
Insecure
Cynical
Pessimistic
Heartless
Dumb
Useless
Ugly me...
Thinking
