My mind told me to tell his ass no, and go back downstairs and get Cece, then take my ass home. But my heart told me to stay and get out the words and questions that's been straining it for so long. I sighed before speaking.
"Alright corahn, let's talk." I said, sitting on the bed.
"First off, how you been?" He asked, sitting next to me.
"I've been stressed, I've been angry, I've been sad, I've been happy, I've been irritated, all that shit. Anything else?"
"You're still angry with me, aren't you?" He asked
"Nah, I ain't angry. I'm just hurt."
He sat silent, searching for the right words to say.
"You know, I already tried once to make things right with you, but you wanted to have your girlfriend answer the phone and shit. I trusted you corahn, and you just turned yo back on me, when you knew I needed you. You put me off like I was just another basic ass female. You forgot I was the only female loyal to you. I fought for you, and I would've beat a bitch's ass if you told me to, I lied for you, I argued for you, I did everything a real friend would do. Is the girl you fucking with, loyal to you like I was?"
"I know you was loyal to me Adrian, and I'm Sor-"
"Nah, my names Ace. You don't know me no more, so don't call me by my name like you do."
"Wow, so that's how you wanna act?"
"Corahn I'm not fucking acting, I'm not fucking playing. I don't got no respect for you no more. You did this, don't complain about it now. Don't attempt to make shit right, now. How you get let some little bitch come in yo mama house and suck you up while yo damn family downstairs waiting On you? Both you fucks are disrespectful." I said standing up off the bed.
I had enough already, I was just ready to go back home. But once again corahn stopped me from leaving. I was pulled back down on to his lap roughly, before I could react he restrained by wrapping his arms around my entire front, my arms under his. This is exactly what Anthony used to do, well still does. I hate that shit, it restrains me, and all I can do is kick, and scream. And I can't even scream, I don't want nobody rushing up here, I ain't come here to cause a scene.
"Corahn let me go," I snapped, kicking my foot against his leg. It probably didn't hurt his leg just yet, but his ass would have one nasty bruise later.
"We ain't done talking, Let me say what the fuck I gotta say first."
"Say what the fuck you gotta say then! Let me up off yo lap."
"I'm not stupid Adrian, soon as I let yo hard headed ass up you gone try to make a run for it."
"I just told yo ass not to call me that,"
"Fuck that, I'm not Finna call you that shit like I'm just some nigga."
"You acting like just some nigga. So ima treat you like you just some nigga." I scoffed
"But I was the main nigga there for you. I was the main nigga holding you at night, comforting you. I love you, just not like that. And I know you love me too."
I laughed to keep the tears inside. "It's funny, how people always hurt the ones they love. Man, I gotta give it to you, I ain't think I could ever be hurt by a nigga, I ain't think a nigga would have my crying so hard that my mama would have to comfort me. I ain't think I'd ever be so fucking hurt, I wanted to change. But you, oh you proved me wrong. You hurt me bad. I ain't think I'd ever have my heart broken, but you shattered it."
I felt him beginning to loosen his grip from around me.
"I'm sorry Adrian," he spoke softly. "That's all I can say,"
