I'm Dying, Mate.

I nodded “fine”

The two of them waved goodbye and gone out of the room, I made a sigh of relief and looked around for a second and checked the time on the wall clock above my bed. I slowly took out the IV and pressed my finger on the bleeding hole and like I always do I gone to walk to the elders bingo room and entered the place.

The old smell of mold is still the same, the yellow painted walls, the plastic table and chairs but the man I wanted to see is not here, Grandpa Max is not here. Turning my heels, I searched for his old room and I remember it clear in my mind its 1453. I still know where that place is and headed there but when I was standing in front of that door I felt a sense of Déjà vu again.

Slowly I finally got the courage to open the door and see Grandpa Max with his back to me in his wheel chair watching his TV. Slowly I walked around him training my eyes on him as I moved, when I was in his line of sight he finally noticed me and looked at my eyes.

“Iona” his lips whispered. His eyes softened but in a flash his face hardened and his eyes were void of emotion “What are you doing here?!” he said almost yelling it to my face. My heart throbbed as I see Grandpa Max rolled his wheel chair close to the Nurse’s button “Get out of here!!”

“grandpa please don’t push me away” I said trying to make him calm down “I just wanted to see you”

“Iona get out of my room!” he said but then his sight drifted to my hand and I saw his eyes go wide but then returned to its normal state and he laughed “You escaped again didn’t you?”

I cracked a smile “Yeah I did”

Tears flooded down his eyes after he laughed and he broke down crying “I’m sorry Iona but you really need to go”

I sighed “I understand”

Going out of the room I felt something throb in pain again, I sneaked to the courtyard of the hospital and lay down on the grass for a while and watched the skies, now I know why Mirage love to watch the skies, it just seemed so peaceful even if you have things on your mind it seems to calm you

The clouds started to drift off in to different shapes some even looked like a baby other a hand and another is like a pillow I started to laugh and remember I always did this with Mirage. I giggled when I saw a smiley kind of cloud.

“Ahhh it takes us back to old memories huh” I looked up to see Mirage in her wheelchair.

“Mirage!” I said in surprise I sit up and she shakes her head and chuckled.

“Sheesh Iona you look like someone who’ve seen a ghost” she chuckled again. She slowly stands on her wheelchair and moves to sit beside me her hospital clothes were large enough to show the end of her scar on her chest, the gorish scar she inflicted from her heart surgery. “Come on lets watch them together”

I smiled and nodded and laid back down with her. Turning my head to Mirage who was staring at the sky with a smile on her face she started to say something

“I remember my first day of school in this real school, many of them as always hated me and will bully me and I will always go to their football field rain or shine and look up the sky and remember Synthia and you” she said with that mile still intact “I used to stare at a door and hope that you will come in bursting like what you always did when you escaped your own room and come to visit me”

I laughed “you still remember that?”

She rolled her eyes “why shouldn’t I remember that? Back then when I ask you what you were doing there you will always answer ‘A very kind nurse came to my room and let me play because I’ve been a very good girl’ and looking back now Its hilarious because you were never a good girl” she laughed

I feigned a very hurt look and scowled “OUCH!! That actually hurts! You know I’ve been good”

She chuckled then sighed “Ughh I feel like an old woman always talking about our ‘good old days’ and talk about it like it was so long that we shouldn’t even remember it”

I shrug “I agree but we do have something in common with those old ladies”

“yeah what’s that?”

“we’re just waiting” I looked up to the sky and frowned “We’re waiting for death”

“You are such a Morbid person sometimes Iona”

“Like I could think of other things other than my own grave being dig up this very moment”