Secretly Loving Him - A Short Story

Part I

PART I

"Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical." - Sophia Loren

"Come on dad! Buy me the Xbox! I got straight As this year!" Daniel exclaimed. "It's cool!"

"Dad, buy me a new laptop! My laptop keeps crashing every single day!" Janine complained.

Sabrina hid behind the wall as she watched her children and David eating their breakfast she prepared for them. After they left for their everyday routine, like Janine and Daniel going to school and David to his company, she returned to her room and slept her sorrows away.

She was an invisible entity in the house. No one noticed her existence.

Knowing that they would arrive soon, she prepared a batch of cookies and set it properly to the table with a pitcher of fresh orange juice. She checked the time again and hurried to her room where she stayed all the time.

"Let's play some badminton, dad!" Janine yelled as Sabrina heard someone running.

"Then, let's eat the cookies that the maid prepared for us! Oh, there's orange juice! The maids are really awesome!" David exclaimed.

David replied, "Sure. Let's go!"

Sabrina never minded her children close to their father. There was nothing wrong with it.

She closed her eyes and imagined Janine's voice saying, 'Mom, please join us too!'

She whispered softly. "Sure, why not?"

She smiled. The feeling was exhilarating, yet so funny. She laughed to herself, just for her to feel something apart from her empty heart.

She almost fell asleep when she remembered about Daniel and Janine's birthday. She can't bake a cake since Janine claimed that she didn't have good baking skills. She sighed, since she can't think of anything to give her. Daniel and Janine were twins, and she can't think what to give Daniel either.

It's not like they were asking her to give them anything anyway.

She cuddled with her pillow and remembered David, a man whose life she ruined. David loved someone else, but ended up marrying her instead and trapping her with children. She knew that David still loved that woman, since he never looked at her straight in the eye. He hated her so much and made sure that her children hated her too.

She heard voices again.

"Yeah, tomorrow is our birthday!" Janine yelled.

"Do you think that Sabrina would bake a shit cake again?" Daniel asked curiously.

"I'll make sure to throw that shit when I saw it. That's why I never invited my friends because of her cake. She would also be a plastic bitch and act really nice."

"Ugh, I know Janine. I really hate her."

"Dad does too. He told me that he's divorcing her soon. After ruining dad's life, she deserves the worst."

Ouch. The blade made contact with Sabrina's skin, to make up with her monochromatic life and feel the pain. David's divorcing her soon? She wasn't surprised. Why did the thought of divorce make her smile? Fourteen years of loveless marriage with David made her wait for the possible divorce, and now it's coming soon.

She cleaned her cuts near her wrist and lay on her bed, staring at the window on her right. There was light during the night. Her heart was filled with nothing. It was just a void hole in her chest.

"Sabrina," the voice was so familiar, but she might be hallucinating so she ignored it. "Sabrina."

Her heart accelerated the moment she looked at David who was near the door. However, she stared at him blankly. "What do you want?"