Red Hope

"You never did have a good aim," Max laughed as he sat back on the couch and looked at me.

"What's that suposed to mean?" I sat at the other end of the couch with my feet up on the coffee table and my head in a bucket.

He winked at me and I looked down into my sick bucket completely ignoring him. I wasn't in the mood for his suggestive behaviour.

"Why are you here?" I murmed.

"I wanted to see you-"

"No, Max. You want something," I snapped. "You don't just turn up out of the blue after a year and a half and want to know how we all are. It just doesn't work like that. I'm not stupid."

"How does it work then?"

"I don't know!" I frowned at him. "I don't know how your stupid brain works."

"Woah, what's with the hate? What have I done?" he genuinely looked like he didn't know and that pissed me off. Why was he so stupid?!

"You don't know what you've done?" I stared at Max, my mouth hanging open. "Are you frigging kidding me??! You just turn up here after a year and a half without speaking to me and think everything will be okay and then you blantantly lie to my face about why you're here!"

"Hey, I'm not lying, Bea! I wanted to...to..." he failed with what he was trying to say and looked away.

"Spit it the hell out then Romeo!" I slammed my bucket on the floor and looked at him straight in the eye. Falling over his good looks could wait...

"You know what, I knew this would happen," Max shook his head.

"Oh, you did, did you? Well done Max! Ten points for observation!" I said sarcastically. "Why are you even here?"

"How many times do I have to tell you, Bea? To see you all," he said it like it was the most obvious answer in the world.

"You're wasting your time. Nobody wants to see you," I grunted.

"Why are you being like this?" Max tried to grab my hand but I pulled it back sharply.

"Because..." my bottom lip began to quiver. "Because I...I don't don't need you anymore. You had your chance and you threw it back in my face... You know, you were once the love of my life and when the simplest issue of me moving away comes up, you broke my heart when I needed you most."

By now my face was streamed with tears and I could hardly breathe. This is something I'd been wanting to say to him for over a year and now I'd said it, I'd left him stunned.

I made little gasps between sobs and hid my tear strickened face in my hands. Max stayed silent for over two minutes as the words I'd spoke sunk in.

"Bea-"

I cut him off. "Don't say anything, Max. It's too late for apologies."

"Bea, please," I could hear the panic in his voice now.

"No!" I shook my head in frustration. "I can't keep doing this. I can't talk to you anymore Max, it's too hard. You bring back so many memories that I can't bring myself to think about; they're too painful. You're too painful."

I looked up at him and saw him wipe a tear from his cheek.

"Bea, we belong together. Can't you just hear me out?" this time he did manage to grab my hand.

"We don't. We don't, Max. We never will again," I peered down at our hands and he linked his fingers with mine.

"I know I made mistakes Bea, but I've learnt from them and I've changed. Please, we're made for each other," Max squeezed my hand and I frowned down at our intertwined fingers.

Images of the four years I had with Max slowly ran through my mind. Cinema dates, picnics at the beach, hanging out at the park. All the things I used to love doing with him. I wanted to go back to what I had with him but then I remembered what we'd gone through and how badly I'd been affected.

Then I remembered Jordan...

"No," I tore my hand from his. "I mean what I say, Max. You're just a painful memory in the back of my mind now. I think it's best you leave."

I was about to wipe the tears from my face when he took me by the waist and yanked me onto his lap. Before I could resist, his lips were on mine and he was reminding me of why I once loved him.

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Definitely not a good move I'm thinking. Oh, Bea :P

This chapter is dedicated to my twin Ellie :) we've had our ups and downs (mostly ups :P) but we've had a lot of fun along the way :D thanks for the support on my stories and good luck at colllege :D love you <3 
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