Always and Forever
"Why?" I asked softly as Niall looked back to the ground. "Why did it have to change? Why can’t we get it back?" Niall didn't look up from the ground. A tear slid from my eye, but I didn't take the effort to brush it off my face.
Niall and I had been best friends for as long as I could remember. We would tell each other everything; but lately things had been rough between us.
Another good friends of mine, Daniel, and I had gotten really close over the summer. Close enough in fact that we started dating. He had been everything I wanted in a man. At least that's what I thought at the time.
When we first started dating, Dan had treated me nicely and he was so kind. Niall, however, didn't like Dan. "There's just something about him, Jenna. I wouldn't trust him." Niall told me this constantly, but for some reason I never listened to him.
Eventually Niall and I stopped seeing each other. We didn't hangout and we didn't even talk. When one of us got on Facebook, the other logged off. It was my fault. One night I had yelled at him...
"Niall, this is my life. Dan and I love each other and there's nothing you can do. I don't understand why you think he’s such a bad person. Why do you even care? Just stay out of my life and stop interfering!"
The words had hung in the air as we stared at each other. Niall turned and left, leaving me standing in the street alone, without even saying a word.
Even though I didn't want to admit it, I missed Niall more than anything. I would find myself being pulled back to him like gravity. When I went on walks I would go to the park where we first met. Or the old tree house where we would spend our long summer afternoons. I would always find myself being pulled back to him.
Dan and I didn't last long, just like Niall had figured. When I found out he was cheating on me I couldn't bring myself to believe it. I had done so much for him, but he didn't even care. The first person I turned to was Niall.
I expected him to walk away, tell me he didn't care, but he did the exact opposite.
I walked up to his room and told him the entire story while he listened. He never said, "I told you so," or "I really don't care," even though it would have been easy to do. Instead he looked me deep in the eyes and whispered, "I’m sorry."
After I stopped crying, I apologized for treating him so badly. And asked if I could make it up to him over lunch tomorrow.
"I can't, Jenna. Sorry." I didn't know what to say. I knew we hadn't been on the best of terms but I was trying to make things right, we still had years of friendship between us. Was he really just going to throw that all away?
"Oh. wh... Why not?" Don’t start crying Jenna. You’ve got to be strong.
"I have an audition for the X-Factor tomorrow. I need to be up early, so I should be getting off to bed soon."
He got off his bed and walked out of the room. I quickly got up and followed him.
"Niall, that's great!" We walked outside into the pouring rain. "Why hadn't you told me you were going to audition?"
He stopped abruptly and turned to face me.
"Are you kidding me?!"
"Well I'm sorry I didn't tell you Jenna. I didn't really think we were on speaking terms. So I’m sorry that after you treated me like shit I didn't come running to you with the one thing that was going good in my life."
My emotions were high, and my body temperature was low. I started shivering from the rain.
"Forget it Jenna. Just go."
"Niall, I'm sorry. I really hope we can still be friends."
"Me too." He said sourly
He turned to walk back inside but there was still so much that I wanted to know. I wanted to know why he hated Dan. I wanted to know why he didn’t try to keep our friendship together instead of letting it break apart. I think I deserved to know at least that much.
I turned back to face him. "Why did you hate him?"
"Dan. Why did you hate him?"
His eyes fell to the ground and he didn't answer.
"Niall, answer me."
He slowly looked up to look at me.
"Because he took the one person I trusted, the one person I loved, away from me. He stole my best friend and now ill never get her back."
"Why?" I asked softly as Niall looked back to the ground. "Why did it have to change? Why can’t we get it back?" Niall didn't move a tear slid from my eye, but I didn't take the effort to brush it off.
"Because I loved you. God damnit Jenna, I still love you. But I knew you would never love me as much as you loved him and I hated him for that.
I couldn’t move. Was he being serious? He looked up and we held each other’s gaze before he said, "Please say something."
I ran over to him and hugged him tightly. "I love you Niall. Always and forever." And then we kissed the most passionate kiss I had ever experienced.
"Please don’t ever leave me again," he whispered against my lips.
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