I Guess I'm Gay (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 6

Sorry so short....PLEASE FORGIVE ME!! <3

 

Ryder’s POV

Since I didn’t have the last classes of my day with Lance then I’ve had time to think over that kiss in Study Hall, too much time and now I’ve practically driven myself crazy going back and forth on how I felt about it. One thing for sure, I did not hate it, no matter how many ways I’ve tried to convince myself otherwise. I’m pretty sure at one point I was trying to tell myself that he was sitting on my lap, raping me and I had no choice but to kiss him back. I don’t think he would believe that though.

Ugh, so this is what I’ve come up with in the last few hours. I got hard while Lance was sitting on top of me and didn’t hate it. I used my hand on him in a sexual way and didn’t hate it. I kissed Lance, who is a guy and didn’t hate it. I kinda want to do it again, not surprising.  I’m sure he wants to do it again, because my mouth is just that amazing. And now I’m gay? What. The. Hell.

I’m not gay. None of that proves that I’m gay! I mean I could have been having an out of body experience. Aliens could have invaded my mind. A fan girl could have possessed my body. Yeah, there are so many things that could have made me go crazy all of those times, it doesn’t have to mean that I am straight up gay, right? Can you even be straight up gay?!

I sighed and shook my head, trying to clear my mind a bit.

“Hey Ryder.” I glanced to the side when I heard a soft whisper of my name and saw Jenna sitting in the seat next to me. She smiled when our eyes met.

I looked her over and groaned internally. She’s so hot! But now I have to break her heart and tell her I’m gay. “Hey baby…er...I mean Jenna not baby cause you know I can’t actually call you baby anymore. Not that you’re not baby calling material cause you are but yeah I’m taken.” She tilted her head in confusion, standing from her seat. Great, she’s going to hit me. “Don’t get upset! I know it feels like your world is about to end but trust me, I would have just taken you home, shown you immense pleasure and then shown you the door.”

“Ryder, what the hell are you talking about?” She huffed out an irritated breath, putting her hand on her hip.

“Pleasure Jenna. You know the art of sex?” I rolled my eyes. I swear the girls here are getting kinda slow…

“Sex?”

“Yes, sex. You know that thing where I teach your body lots of new positions? I could give you a demonstration.” I smiled cockily before groaning. “Wait, no I can’t! Jeez! Stop trying to get me to cheat on Lance! What the hell? You girls are all the same!”

“Ryder, I was just going to tell you that the bell rang five minutes ago! Sex, ewe! I don’t even do that until I’m married!” She stomped her foot and looked at me in disgust before storming out of the room.

She doesn’t do sex until she’s married? There are actually people in this world that still believes in that? And I’ve known one for years! Oh, Jenna, Jenna Jenna…challenge accepte-AWE! DAMN! Challenge not accepted because I’m freaking gay now! Stupid Lance and his crazy ‘oh we can be gay together’ thing!

I picked up my book bag and walked out of the empty classroom to see my hmm…friend? Boyfriend? Friend with benefit? What exactly is he? I don’t think we ever even decided on an official title. But we did decide to try being gay together so that should mean we’re together, right?

“Hey, you ok?” Concern coated his voice and I smiled slightly. Whatever, guess that’s just something we will have to talk about later.

“Yeah.” I said, coming to a stop next to him just as Daniel and Heath showed up. They were laughing over something and giving each other looks. The kind of looks that said they were ready to tear each other’s clothing off. Whoa. Am I supposed to be looking at Lance like that?