My Life .... SUCKS ?!!!(ON HOLD)

Dedicated To My First Fan

It was 3 years ago when i fell in love with a friend of mine .. He was my first love and my bestfriend as  

well he is John Gonzaga. we did a lot of things together we talk about stuff that only the two of us

knows and understands . But because one of our friends that I trusted with a secret spilled it and told

John that I love him .. this ended it all .. all the times and memories we had together disappeared in

a blink of an eye .. simula noon hindi na niya ko kinausap ang sabi nya sakin may mahal na daw

siya at yun ang classmate  ko na si  Andee Castillo , hindi ko naman inexpect na mahalin nya ko

ang akin lang sana kahit papano pinahalagahan nya ko di ba kahit kaunti man lang sana pero mas  

pinili nya si andee kesa sa friendship naming dalawa .. ang sakit lang it was like I was only

dreaming about  the friendship we both shared .. It was nothing to him ..

ako nga pala si Sarah Takinato i was 13yrs old when i fell in love . grade six .. hindi po ako

japanese . I'm a Filipino and Proud to be ..

AFTER ONE YEAR ..

Until now hindi pa rin kami nag-uusap I tried a lot things to make it up to him i do love him so much 

but I dont want to sacrifice our friendship it's almost one year na hindi kami nag-uusap malapit na 

rin ang birthday niya ano kaya magandang ibigay napaisip ako ng sobra at yun naalala ko mahilig

nga pala siya magbasa.. kaya naman tumawag ako sa pinsan ko na nasa Japan

 " ate alyanna i need a favor can you buy the latest and newest release of manga that is availablethere .. and sendit to me please  "  

" sure kitty cat , until what volume ? " yan tinanong ni ate alyanna natuwa ako bigla kasi ibig sabihin 

payag na siya 

" ate if its ok can it be until volume 5 ?" now im kinda scared baka hindi na siya pumayag 

" ok kitty cat , you're going to give it to john right ?! " anu daw ??? panu niya nalaman o_O

" a-ah e-eh o-oopo .. malapit na ka-kasi birthday niya e-eh " 

" ok lang kitty cat just dont give your all to him , cause you might get really hurt " nalungkoy ako sa 

sinabe ng ate ..

" opo , sige po ate salamat po ulit " haaayyy 

 " okay bye kitty cat ! " at binaba nya ang phone 

ON THE DAY OF HIS BIRTH DAY 

Were in different classes so I asked one of her classmate who is my friend to give him the gift 

his classmate went it and gave it to john he looked puzzled when he received .. natakot tuloy ako

kung bakit ganun yung reaction niya .. kaya pumasok nalang ako sa classroom namin ..

at dumating ang uwian ...

kasama ko ang isa sa mga classmate ni john na sobrang close ko si Mike Joseph Majeros 

at dahi na di sa kadahilanan na siya ang boyfriend ng bestfriend ko na si Anyia Micaizo

nagkukulitan kami ni Mike at nakikinig ng music sa cellphone sa may hagdanan habang hiniintay

si Anyia lumapit si John at may binato sa harapan namin Mike nagulat ako ng makita kong yun 

yung regalong binigay ko sakanya kanina..

" I'm sorry but I dont accept gifts from strangers !" sabi ni John tapos nag-walk out na siya 

di ko alam ang magiging reaction ko ngumiti nalang ako kay mike tapos di ko nalang namalayan

yakap yakap na ko ni Mike ang hindi ko namalayan kahit pala ngumiti ako  di ko mapipigilan ang 

masaktan kahit papano .. narinig ko nalng ang boses ni Anyia na unti unti na ding yumayakap sakin

"Sarah hayaan mo na yun , wag ka na umiyak marami pang dadating para sayo " sabi ni Anyia 

"Alam ko masakit para sayo pero kailangan na nating tanggapin na wala na talaga" yan ang sabi mike habang yakap pa din ako 

alam kong wala na talaga sa pagkakataon na ito indi na ko mahalaga sakanya kahit kaunti lang 

kahit kaibigan di na nya ko tinuturing ang sakit para sa kanya wala na ang lahat parang kahit kela di 

ko siya naging kaibigan at wala kaming pinagsamahan ..

STRANGER..

STRANGER ..

STRANGER ..

yaan ang paulit ulit kong naririnig sa isipan ko habang yakap yakap ako ni Mike at pinapatahan ni Anyia ..