But it's nice, and I'm hungry. Harry's cooking skills are perfect. When the plate is empty, I feel weird, and not in a good way. I swallow and then it's too late. I wriggle out of Liam's grip and run to the bathroom, kneel next to the toilet. This feeling is horrible, I'm way too fat. C'mon, throw up! I feel it in my stomach but it won't come out, so I put one finger in my throat and bend over. Liam enters the bathroom and holds back my hair. He looks shocked and worried. I fall back against his arms, my stomach empty now. He holds my while the tears escape my eyes. "I'm so sorry" he says and picks me up, bringing me to his room. I stop crying, it's useless and stupid. I look so weak, I have to stop it.
"You know it's all psychical?" Liam says while handing me a glass of water. I sigh. Why can't I be just normal. No, not normal, prefect? I want to be like Danielle, not the stupid Youé. "You think you can't eat before 12, but in England, it's night now, you ate a lot of times before 12." he tells me and I know it's true, but I can't change it. Everything is better than that feeling. "Let's change" Liam says and I get up. I'm so ashamed. Who is that stupid that she can't eat breakfast? That's the most ridiculous thing ever. "Liam, I'm first going to take a shower. I feel gross" I say and he turns around. "Mind if I join?"
Rehearsals, then the concert. This day will be alright, I hope. Louis enters the living room and I smile at him. "Exited for tonight? It's going to be a great show!" I say and he laughs. "You're adorable" he says and I jump into his arms.
"I love you boo" I say and he hugs me. "love you too Loulou." he says and puts me down. "I have an idea" I say and his eyes get wide. "Tell me!"
"Let's bake cupcakes!" I say and he smirks.
"TO THE SUGAR" I yell and he chuckles. "I missed this so much" he says and I grin at him. "Let's make other cupcakes than our chocolate ones. Let's make....MARSHMALLOW CUPCAKES" I say and he laughs. "Sure"
"TO THE MARSHMALLOWS" I squal and he pushes the cart through the supermarket. "You know, you're way better than that Perrie girl. And Youé way more special than Danielle" Louis says and I smile at him. "Thanks, Boo. I'm not worried. Zayn wouldn't cheat on me. We're way to close for that" I say and I am really sure about it. Zayn wouldn't.
The boys come up on stage and the crowd goes wild.
"NIALL I LOVE YOU, LIAM PLEASE KISS ME, LOUIS CAN I GET A HUG?" Persephone and I are standing backstage on the right side, Danielle and Perrie on the left. I look Danielle and see her glare at me, without a single smile.
Laura and the boys sing a couple of songs, and then Liam begins to talk. "Hello girls! How are you tonight?" Everyone cheers and Persephone and I do too. We always make our own party here backstage. Sara joins us. "Alright, so we have a surprise. Girls please join us on stage!" I smirk and Persephone and I take a step forward. Then my heart drops. Zayn runs to Perrie and Danielle.
They ment them, not us. I take a step back, it would be so embarrassing when the crowd had already seen me, but they didn't. I look at Laura, oh Zayn is in deep trouble if he makes any move now. Her eyes shot fire and she looks backstage at me and shakes her head slowly. "These girls are Perrie and Danielle, 2 lovely girls. Say hello everyone" Everyone yells hello but I hear other replies too. "Where's Youé? What happened between you and Laura? Did you break up?"
"They are really good friends" Zayn says and I see Laura tense. "The next song is dedicated to them" Liam says and the music starts to play. One thing. Don't get upset Youé, These girls are going to leave soon, right? I follow Liam's gaze everywhere and I see Laura doing the same, this is one of the songs she's not participating with. So she just sits on the side of the stage and listens to their beautiful voices. But no, she's standing a side, trying to look relaxed, but I see her face. She's scared, her eyes filled with fear.
Then Louis' solo starts and he looks at me. When he finishes he mouths something. 'it will be alright' he mouthed and the song ends. Danielle takes the microphone. "Thanks so much!" she says but then a couple fans begin yelling at her.
|Liam Payne||as Liam|
|Zayn Malik||as Zayn|
|Niall Horan||as Niall|
|Louis Tomlinson||as Louis|
|Harry Styles||as Harry|
|Laura Stone||as Laura|
|Youé Clearwater||as Youé|
|Aïsha Morgan||as Aïsha|
|Alexis Reid||as Alexis|
|Catara Johnson||as Catara|