Shhhh....

                OK  I have an eating disorder and my parents forget they even have a child. The dream life right. Well that’s how many people see it. I come to school dressed up nice hair bubbly personality and I make it look like I’m the “perfectly happy girl who everybody wants to be”. But I’m not. Well not on the inside at least. My thoughts consume my head 24/7. I live a terrible life behind the makeup and clothes. A terrible life. I started being bulimic since I was a fresh man in high school (which was about 6 months ago.) People say I was already skinny before but that’s not what I saw. I saw fat fat and more fat, and everytime I thought about it it would take over  my head. At lunch the first day of high school we were all sitting talking and having a great time. All of sudden my friend says “whoa Katie are you gonna eat all that”. And all of my friends start laughing and I just sit there embarrassed. It was a lot of food and I knew myy friend was just joking but she didn’t know that I already thought I was fat and would do amything to stop thinking that. But what she said was the icing on the cake. So I awkwardly laughed and said “I don’t know why  I got all this I’m not even hungry”. So I offered the rest to my friends got up and went to the bathroom. Once I got in there I didn’t know what to do.  So I just cried and let my thoughts fill my head. “Katie you’re so fat” “Katie you’re so ugly” “Katie your so…….” . Then before I could think I took out the pen in my bag went into a stall and put it down my throat until I threw up. I just melted to the ground and started balling my eyes out. Then my bestfriend Charlotte came in and heard me crying. She opened the door and saw the puke in the toilet looked me straight in the eye and said “Katie are you okay”  “Yeah I’m fine” I’m normal right?