Fight For You (On Hold)

Ok guys, sorry i havent uploaded i have had exams all week and i've been studying. Sorry if this is breif but i need to study but people are asking for an upload.

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Jade's P.O.V

I woke up at around 7 am the next morning. i felt like shit after i cry. I got up and walked into the bathroom and had a shower. I got dressed in running gear deciding to go for a good long run along along the beach. I wrote a letter to Andrew and Eric telling them where i was. I got dressed in a blue top and pink shorts and my Nike Free runs. I stuffed a $20 note in my bra, got my head phones in and played Freeze by Chris Brown and T-Pain. Then i  started running.

Running is'nt for everyone but when i do it, it just feels natural. I feel free, like a bird. Im in my own little world where nobody will judge me no matter what. Theres no wrongs or rights. Nobody can tell you your running wrong. They can watch, but can say nothing. All your thoughts or worries just go away. When you have your music in, you run faster to the beat. You get lost in your own little world. Your finally yourself. No pretending. No fake emotions. All yourself

I ran a good 5kms. Normally i run about 7km but its hot out and i cant be bothered. I finaly stopped and i looked around and saw i was near the place where our old house was. I didnt realise i ran here. Justin lived next door but i saw no car parked there so i ran to our house. I got the key from under the pot plant and stuck it in. the door opened. I dont know why mum and dad didnt sell it. Too many memorys i think.

I walked in and it was all dusty. Wow, i havent been here in ages.I slowly looked around. I got a few tears to my eyes. I really missed this place. Imagine if he didnt hurt me, i could be here right now with all my friends and family all around me. i could be down at the beach with all my boys! I wonder if he's sorry? I would just love to go back in time and tell him to keep true to himself. I loved it here so much.

I then made my way up to my room. I opened the door and it was still the same except with things missing. One full wall was covered in photos of Justin and i. There were a few taken off cause those were the ones of the rest of my friends and family. Packing up my room was the heardest thing so i mainly let Eric and Andy do it for me. I just did the main things. I looked under my bed and saw a box. It said My boys on it. I sat on the bed and pulled the lid off. It was full of photos and pitures. It even had one of Chaz's jumpers in there! I picked up one photo of Chaz, Justin, Eric, Andy and i. It was taken on the last day of summer holidays. Just before school went back. Just before i lost Justin. I looked on the back and in Justins neat writeing it said : "Jade, you and i are till th ened. your my best friend and nothing will ever change. Thankyou for everything." Soft, silent tears rolled down my face. I remeber this day like it was the back of my hand.It was the last time i was really happy. I looked at all th eother photos and one was of just Justin and i. We were picked for a photo shoot when we were 13. We had to get real close in an intamite position. He had his arms around my waist and my arms around his neck. We looked into each others eyes and thats when i realised that he meant something to me, something much more then a friend. He made me feel special. Like that as long as he was my best friend that nothing could go wrong. It was us too. Then before i knew it, the shoot was over yet we still stood in each others eyes just staring into each other. We then broke out of the trance.

I realsied i loved him. Not like a brother. Not like a best friend. Deeper and more special love. 

 I checked my phone and it was 10 o'clock. Wow, i was gone for 3 hours. I got all the photos i liked in one hand and put the rest in the box. I got the rest of my stuff that i wanted and stuff that i thought the boys would like. I walked passed mum and dads room and i noticed that Mum hasnt called yet. Of course.

I walked out of the house and locked the door. I kept the key. I saw Justins car pull up. Just in time. He hoped out looking as chill as ever. He looked my way then back at his house. Then back at me. I walked over to him.

" I went for a run this morning and thought i'd pop by my old house and i just happened to stumble across a box. i opened the box and it had pictures of us in there. Here, i dont want them." I shoved them in his hand. He looked at the first picture and smiled softly.