One month later- Jax’s POV
Splashing a handful of cold water over my face, I was struggling to wake up. I hadn’t been sleeping since, Amber left. Guilt mixed with regret consumed me. I was finding it harder to get through a day without my thoughts drifting to her.
The ‘should haves’ began to fly through my mind again. I should have stopped her, I stopped have let her explain. I should have trusted her.
I grabbed my leather vest of the bed. I was craving for some action, for anything to happen today that would take my mind of her for a few hours.
The smell of cigarettes was strong in the air, when I walked out into the lounge area. Now parole was over, I could move out of the Shield’s and into the clubhouse. It couldn’t have come quick enough, because the Shield’s didn’t want me there. They blamed me for losing Amber, and they had a right too.
It was my fault she was gone.
“They’re doing that video chat thing with Amber.” Adam yawned from the couch, “Thought I’d let you know.”
Surprisingly Adam hadn’t changed much since what happened. He still treated me the same, and for some unknown reason actually was pushing me to speak with Amber.
“Of course you did.” I scoffed.
“Yeah, you should go in there.” Adam nodded his head towards the table room.
I could hear the other guys in there making a fuss, but I wasn’t interested because hearing her voice just pulled on strings that brought emotions I didn’t want to deal with to the surface.
“I’m going out.” I muttered, storming through the room. Like I said I needed action something to take my mind of her. The last thing I wanted to do was hang around here and listen to Amber’s voice.
Hearing her, only reminded me I would never have her.
“Cole stop that.” I slapped his hand as he went to readjust the laptop camera again. “Or I fucking break your hand off.”
Cole glared at me and sat back in the chair beside me.
“Look its Amber!” Tyler pointed to the computer screen and I quickly whipped around to see.
Sure enough Amber was smiling at us through the computer screen. The first thing I noticed was she had cut her hair.
“You got a haircut.” Cole stated noticing the same thing.
“Yeah it was annoying me.” Amber’s voice echoed out of the computer speakers.
“How’s England?” I asked her. Since she left, I’ve been worrying about her; more than normal. I can only imagine the trouble she can keep up to there by herself.
“Yeah it’s awesome here.” She grinned, looking happy. “The only down side is not having a threatening motorbike gang to back me up.” Cheekiness flashed across her eyes. “How are you guys?”
“Troy’s got a girlfriend.” Cole gruffed, and I punched him in the arm as soon as he said it.
I didn’t like anyone mentioning Sophie, because I wasn’t use to having a girlfriend and it still slightly stumped me when I heard it out loud.
“You’re kidding!?” Amber explained, “Who is it?”
“April Reyes.” Tyler answered her straight away, and he stepped back before I could slug him.
“April Reyes, the chick that works at the video shop?” Amber asked curiosity in her voice.
“She hasn’t worked there for over a year.” I snapped defending her, for some reason it just came naturally to defend her. Dating someone was knew to me, and being lucky enough to have April- well I wasn’t use to it.
“Well who knew Troy you had it in you.” Amber smiled at me, and I hated it. “April is really nice, from what I remember.”
“Enough about me.” I snapped “It’s not interesting.”
“It kind of is.” Amber actually giggled at me “Troy I can’t believe you actually have a girlfriend!”
“Get over it already! I didn’t make this big of deal when you started going out with Jax.” I regretted it as soon as I said. My temper always got the best of me.
Amber went silent and so did the boys. Really couldn’t they bring something else up already? The silence seemed to last forever and funny enough it was Amber who broke it.
“How is Jax?” Amber didn’t have any emotion in her voice “Is he still with Mai?”
“He was never with Mai.” I answered seeing as it was me who brought this up and the boys had suddenly become mutes.