She is meant to be my best friend.she is meant to be there for me. But she is in the way . I m trying to break free but she is the cage holding me in like a prison.
Its weird to think that 2 days ago we were BFFs , and now she is my worst enemy. Koressa (MY ENEMY) has told everyone in my class and now Becca Morissa is ignoring me. You may think its just a baby fall out , but to me its a matter of loosing somebody as close as family. When we were friends we never fell out or argued but now , we are playing cat and mouse she trying to gobble my happiness up and turn it into tears and fright. However , Ive got Shanade and Cali ohconor. Koressa may only have Laura Tarly , but Laura was my friend and she understood me . She did not bully me because i am ginger , because im clever and because im ilergic to make-up because , she is exactly the same (without the ginger hair and make-up). Melissa was close but not just close she was a part of me like we were two peas in a pod. Korissa is now like a bar of gold and treating me like im plastic. I read a book today and it said a friend is true and kind and equal you are close to eachother but closer to the truth i dont no what it means but im sure it makes korissa look bad.
Last night there was a storm and i felt like i was the lightning striking the ground and sizzling everyone with hurt. I fell like i was perfect and Koressa came and turned me to fire , now i burn the truth , my feelings for everything i have , before i turn to ice and freeze my tears emotion and love. After it started to rain , and i cried because the rain had been freed and i was trapped in the clouds trying to escape but i cant because SHE is the cloud holding me so my hurt and pain cant get out so now i can never be happy until she is gone. I'm scared she will never go. What if i become somebody so sad that all i do is cry as she stares and laughs .
I am constantly thinking about her and now its a war : who ever gets the the best handbag or most friends is considered ''the winner'' and she is winning she has all the girls on her side and she recently bought a Paul's boutique handbag but i don't like it. I'm scared and frightened my diary went missing and i saw the girls looking and chuckling a book similar to my diary.
Yesterday my mum had a go at Linda Koressa's parents i wanted her to stop i felt embarrassed my mum was giving one of her proper Essex fights (Essex is where we come from). Linda looked like she could gouge mums eyes out. I felt like my head was an embarrassment metre and it was going to explode and i would be left dead . I wish i was dead it seems like there was no reason for me to be on this world and when i die i hope Koressa sees the full effect of the pain , grief and misery she has caused me .
Today Koressa and her girl gang played a game she looked like a retarded chicken. I don't no but i think shanade and cali have fallen out with me every-time i ask them to play they roll their pathetic eyes and run of laughing and giggling . I felt like i was going to chuck up they ditched me they had made me believe i still had one tiny thing left in the cold pain-full world they made me believe i had an inch of hope but ran off and left me to freeze in my tears and burn in my heartache. I wish i was never born what is the point of ME silly old me and pointless old me . How did my life become so hard i was going st 100 miles an hour now i go at 1 inch a day its like she pushed me into thick mud and I'm stuck i can see the light but there is no way of getting there , I'm drowning in her hate , I'm breathing in her harsh words and being killed by her sharp sword of grief.
If only she could see the tears she makes me cry the love she sucks out like a tornado and scars she cuts with her mind of evil. I always wish she would come running back to me asking for are friendship and i would say no i would be the boss the dominate one not her. Koressa never learns from her bitter bitter mistakes she will keep tripping over the same mistake again and again until she is bleeding and screaming in pain but i wont be there to give her my hand and pick her up and be her bff.
OK somebody shoot me . I have made up with Koressa I don't no how but we are together forever it took us a long time but we are friends she refilled a hole in my heart. But there is always going to be a bell ringing in the back of my head reminding me of the pain she brings but bffs will do for now even though they might not be forever. Maybe it was luck we fell out we needed time a part but I think we are gonna stay friends just like we always do. Everyone has fall outs with each other and they just need superglue to create something wonderful. And i no it sound soppy but we are the best-est friends forever