The Reason (Completed)

Letter 17

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I don't know what to say about my change.

I guess the me now, the one who's writing right now. Is also shocked by that kind of change. But seriously, with them? (C.A, Ally, Clarice, Stefan, JB) I had the time of my life. I guess that's all that matters right? For me to be happy.

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"Body shot! Body shot! Body shot!" they keep on shouting to Kuya CA to do a body shot. I smirked and got my drink.

Maya-maya mapapagod din yang mga yan kasi KJ yang si Kuya CA. Asa pa silang mag body shot yan. Kung may mother goose, may papa bear naman kami! Hahaha! 

"Pssh. Okay fine! Basta ba si Freah yung partner ko." What the hell? 

Unti unti akong humarap sa nakangising CA na may hawak na tequila. 

"What the hell papa bear?" I scoffed at him pero patuloy lang siya sa pagngisi.

"Freah, don't say na aayaw ka?" Stefan said, mocking me. Yeah right. Di ako aayaw no! Ano ako? Duwag? Hell no.

Kaya naman tumayo na ko tapos ay lumapit kay Kuya CA.

Linapit ko yung mukha ko sa mukha niya tapos ay ngumisi.

"Kuya CA... Let's just make it easy, papa bear. The lemon on my mouth, salt on my shoulder. Okay?"

Tumango na lang siya. Good.

I bit the lemon using my teeth of course. Then I put some salt on my shoulder which made everybody turn in some violent reaction. Kasi hindi si Kuya CA yung pinagawa ko. 

He got up, went to me. Lick the salt on my shoulder and drank his tequila straight then he went to my mouth to get the lemon but what surprised me is... 

He kissed me after he got the lemon! 

Lahat ay napa "wooooh" But me? Wala. Walang reaksyon. Come on! Anong irereact ko? Wala naman akong gusto sakanya or such. 

Kaya naman ngumiti na lang ako sakanya tapos ay pumunta sa counter para iwan sila sa booth namin. God damnit. Don't tell me he likes me? I mean, kuya lang tingin ko sakanya. Duh? And I think I'll never love anyone else. Not that I still love Austin. Ok well, I still have the feelings but not that much. 

"Freah..." nagulat ako na sumunod siya sakin pero hindi ko pinahalata. Humarap ako sakanya tapos ay ngumisi.

"Yeah?"

Nakahawak siya sa batok niya na para bang kinakabahan at parang may gustong sabihin.

Oh no. He don't... Kung ano man nasa isip ko, sana hindi 'yun yung gusto niyang sabihin.

"About the kiss...,'' huminga siya ng malamin bago ipagpatuloy yung sasabihin niya. At tama nga ako.

"I like you, Freah." God. Is this happening all over again?

"Kuya CA....'' he cut me off to say 'Just CA.' which I didn't. Dang. Kuya nga lang tingin ko sakanya. That's it. 

"Look, I don't mean to hurt you pero, kuya lang talaga tingin ko sa'yo, papa bear." Biniro ko pa siya na may kasamang palo pero seryosong nakatingin lang siya sakin na para bang pwede akong masaksak ng mga tingin niya. Lol 

"Freah. I'm dead serious." 

"Seryoso din ako nung sinabi kong kuya lang talaga tingin ko sa'yo. Sorry." Ngumiti ako ng malungkot sakanya at tumalikod. 

I walked away slowy because the freaking alcohol has its effects. 

Music is loud you can hear people shouting, dancing retards on the dancefloor, some people flirting there somewhere. Pero nagmamadali na kong makalabas dito, after that confession I don't think I can stay anymore.