The Man Above Saved Me

I'm scared left with nothing to say
I've thought about this every day
It's the pain I hold in that keeps me silent
I just wish my thoughts weren't so violent

I've cut to try to keep me from getting to this point
But me in this life im such a disappoint
So scared to live another day
The screaming and fighting won't go away

Why would I want to stay where all I want to do is hide
Maybe it would be better if I just died
I don't want to get hit or feel pain anymore
All that's left is tears to pour

My clothes have holes as so does my heart
In this world I don't feel apart
It's so cold I can see my breath
Just another breath closer to death

I wish to tell my family how I love them so
But I'm just in the dark as another shadow
Maybe one day they will open there eyes
And possibly apologize

But by then it will be to late
Because another day to a year I can not wait
So as I tie the rope into a knot
I make sure if I want to do this or not

I slide a chair to where I can now reach
And say to myself a little speech
I love you,you tried but knows its time
If your wanting to end the rest of your lifetime

I slide it tightly around my neck
If I want to change my mind I got one more sec
But if I changed my mind
I'd steal be left behind

Because I'm not loved by anyone
just hated by everyone
So as I take my last breath to hold in
I step off the chair and choking I begin

Till Hands holding me I see in a form of a light
My heart starts beating I feel love not fright
Im in a room where a IV is attached
And in one hand where my mothers hands are latched

I thought it was all a dream
Yet I remember that bright beam
And a man saying you must stay here your family's in need
In your life you will succeed

They love you and that will start to show
They have to get thought rough
times though
The mans voice showed me love
That when I realized I was saved by the man himself I was saved my the man above

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