Poems Written In Crayon

It's something I can't explain

It hurts to breath

-maybe I should stop breathing-

My head is killing me

-maybe I should kill it-

I take a pill at a time but nothings working

-maybe I should take more-

I take a hand full but doesn't seem to move

-why can't I do this?-

I close my eyes and count to three

-but my hand doesn't move-

I open my eyes looking at the hand full of pills

-why can't I just shove them in my mouth and be over with this crap-

I start to think -are you sure you want to do this think of the people you would leave behind-

I close my eyes and start to cry

-but I can go on anymore I cant live in a world so cruel-

I take my last breath knowing

-this is it no turning back-

I feel my tears run down my face they feel so warm against my cheek

-I can do this it won't hurt-

Note: I started writing something small but my mind started to drift and I came up with this I read over it thinking -Are you sure about this?- but I couldn't think of a answer my mind is somewhere else somewhere far deep in my head in my thoughts a place private my head hurts in brutal pain but It seems I can't fall asleep so I started to write if for some stupid reason I publish this 1. Please don't ask me what wrong I'll just say nothing and 2. My friend is over my shoulder o.O