Tomorrow and Forever [Editing]

Chapter 40 - The Truth is Out

 Nathan

     So she thought I was stupid, after everything, she was playing me for a fool.

I wasn’t asleep when I felt her get out of bed; I wasn’t asleep when I watched her slip out of my room quietly. I thought maybe she was trying to escape when I heard her soft footsteps travel downstairs, so I got up out of bed and followed her.

I was curious to see her go into the kitchen, and into the fridge. I thought maybe she was hungry or something. 

She did something with the bags of food, only I couldn’t see what from where I was standing. When I saw she was on her way back upstairs, I quickly hid back in my room, intending to startle her when she came back in.

 But she didn’t come back in.

No, she went into his room. I watched as she cried into his pillow and my heart seethed with utter rage, she missed him and after everything, she still wanted him. I had every intention on storming into that room and ragging her everywhere.

But something stopped me; instead I went back to bed and went to sleep. The only thing keeping her alive right now was the sex. She made me feel different; I wanted her so badly all the time, the passion between us was intoxicating. But right now I was tired and needed sleep. 

At five in the morning I felt her slip in bed beside me again, I turned to look at her and watched as she dozed, her eyes puffy from the tears she shed for my brother.

I watched her until my alarm went off at eight, afterwards I picked up her sleeping body and took her back to her room and locked her inside. I went downstairs quickly to investigate the food. She didn’t know I was a detective, trained to spot even the tiniest of clues. She didn’t know I could see the tiny granules of poison enfolded inside tonight’s meal.

Since then I’d been blocked of all feelings, until now.

I chuckled to myself, so she wanted to kill me? This is what she was up to. The fact that she wanted to kill me did hurt me, it ripped my heart into pieces. I loved her and she led me to believe she loved me too. But I laughed because she really thought I was an idiot and that I wouldn’t find out?

Instead of quaking into my desire to kill her I kept myself busy by tidying the house, each second was hard not to storm up those stairs and slit her throat open. At eleven I went upstairs to wake her up, trying my best to keep calm, only to find that she was sat on the bed fully dressed and looking breath taking as usual. But she was a bitch and didn’t deserve to live after what she done.

I was nice to her, I treated her with respect and gave her a new home and for what? So she could stab me in the back and kill me?

But I decided to act cool and play along as I took her downstairs, I gave her some cereal and let her eat it on the couch which she did slowly. I had a plan for tonight’s dinner; I was going to make it special. She ate the cereal in silence, trying her best not to look my way. We hadn’t spoken a word and I didn’t intend to either, I turned on the TV and sat away from her, bored of her.

Bored of feeling unloved.

I could have been loved once... I dated a girl called Jules in college. She was stunning, clever and she adored me. Hiding who you really are isn’t easy and soon she started to notice my draw towards girls with talents, in the end she thought I cheated on her and she left me.

One thing she said to me though that will forever stick in my mind. She said she could have loved me.

Since then I wanted to find a girl who knew me for me and looked past it, no, I was desparate for it. I went through my girls, some just died like Vicky did. I was young and didn't know what I was doing, it made no sense at first. Soon I learned from my mistakes and learned how to take proper care of them. When I got Tina, I thought she was the one.

She told me she loved me, but then she cheated on me the second Mires walked through the doors.

Edith doesn’t love me, she slept with my brother and I was okay with that. What I have with her is different, it's challenging and makes me excited. But the fact is that she's trying to kill me, therefore I intend to get rid of her and continue my search in finding a girl who will love me for me.