“Someday a computer will give a wrong answer to spare someone's feelings, and man will have invented artificial intelligence.”
1. My boyfriend is gay
-and dating another guy
-My boyfriend’s boyfriend is a decent person and I like him
-I should therefore avoid hurting them both
-I am lying to them both
-Since we started ‘dating’, Matthew has been much happier
-Matthew deserves to be happy
-Matthew is pretty much the only innocent person in this whole sordid situation
Conclusion: I need to stop lying to Matthew. I need to tell him everything. Even if there’s a chance that he might not want to be my friend anymore. Matthew deserves the truth.
2. My mother has fallen off the wagon and subsequently come here
-She will ruin my social standing
-My father will ruin her if he finds out how far gone she is
-I am the only one even mildly capable of reasoning with my mother
-If I move back, she’ll still be a mess and I’ll be unhappy
-I want to stay with my father, but I also want my mother to be better
-She won’t get better if she’s left alone
-I need to keep my mother’s problems a secret and try to make her better
-I don’t know how to make her better
Conclusion: Hide the full extent of mother’s problems from father. Talk to mother. Try and convince her to stay at the hotel for a while so I can keep an eye on her. Avoid being seen with her in public. Try and cut off her alcohol and pharmaceutical supplies. Hope for the best.
3. My stepmother is lying to her husband for me
-I am lying to my stepmother
-Kiki is smarter than people think she is
-Kiki deserves better than my father
-She loves him anyway
Conclusion: Stop involving Kiki in my lies. She is no longer a viable backup plan.
4. I have replaced Narissa as Queen Bee
-But only because I’m dating Matthew
-I’m not really dating Matthew
-Being popular means I have friends
-I like having friends
-Lying has made me friends
Conclusion: Talk to Matthew before making any decisions on whether or not we will still be pretending to date. Either way, I’ll have to lie to keep my friends.
Notable thoughts: Are they worth keeping if I have to lie to do so? What does it say about me that I have to lie in order to have friends? Should I consider just becoming a nun?
-Social standing is everything to her
-Narissa blames me for losing her place as Queen Bee
-She is right justified, but going about it the wrong way
-There is no right way to go about blaming someone for usurping you
-Narissa wants to destroy me