2-6-2009
Dear Diary,
I have gotten weaker, the demon that haunts me it's getting stronger. I hear “The Voice” in my head every night telling me to kill...to kill....to kill. I can't control this demon inside. It drown's me in blackness and oblivion, it hurts like the depths of hell are killing from the inside. I hope to find a doctor to help me with this demon inside me by tomorrow because this is me not me if I were to shot myself in the head I would hear silence in only that.
2-7-2009
Dear Diary,
I have not found a doctor and my wife she is getting concerned of my action's. She says sometimes i'll pass out and start mumbling! One time I even grabbed my child and started beating her. My Wife says that I need to find a doctor quick. Because now I feel the urge to kill myself!
