thought he was capable of.
"Jake, this would work a lot better if you were human right now" my mother stated simply. He and the other three wolves ran away quickly-obviously to phase.
In there absence my father turned towards me. I didn't want to hold his eye contact I felt like I was going to get yelled at ...like I was four years old or something.
Still looking at me; my father spoke to my mother "Did you know that our 17 year old daughter is planning on getting married?"
I froze. What had Jacob thought? Damn it, this was definitely not the time or the place to discuss this. My eyes quickly jumped to my mothers; her face had to have mirrored mine. I didn't want her in the middle of this; I didn't want them to fight. I focused on controlling my thoughts.
"Was" I emphasized "...planning on it...I was going to tell you but then we... broke up." It was still so hard to say it "We are not engaged anymore...I'm sorry" the words flew out with no control.
He looked at me skeptically. "You're not engaged? Well then why is Jacob calling you his fiancé in his thoughts?" he said angrily.
I ignored my fathers tone. My heart leapt into oblivion, Jacob referred to me as his fiancé? What did this mean? Did he want me back? Has he forgiven me?
It was hard to control my happiness, which came through in my thoughts.
My father grunted "You are too young. This is completely out of the question. Maybe you two need this break"
My mother faced my father, they were quiet. Her shield was obviously up. His face just seemed scarier and scarier I so badly wanted to know what she was saying. He finally looked back at me.
"We will discuss this at home" he said still speaking through his teeth.
"Ok" I answered quickly and nervously.
At that same moment Jacob was walking up...my heart began to race. I knew I could try and control my thoughts- at least- but my heart...there was no controlling that. My father grimaced as a low growl escaped his lips; I saw my mother nudge him in the side.
"She needs to be home before dark...not a second later" my father demanded.
Jacob nodded once. No expression on his face.
My mother looked at me, a soft and almost unrecognizable smile rested on her face before she grabbed my fathers hand and walked away, my uncles followed. As they turned I could see Uncle Emmett with a huge smirk on his face. He was lucky I had bigger things to worry about.
Jacob walked towards me. Not saying one word. He was only a few inches from me when he looked up finally making eye contact.
"Jake" my voice was light, it still wasn't my voice that I'd been searching for these last few weeks but it wasn't desperate and lonely or tired. It was just...
"What the hell were you thinking?" he barked at me.
I was startled I wasn't expecting such a harsh tone from him.
"Jacob, I was just..."
"I get it...you were trying to protect...him...but you could have gotten killed, you know you can't get that close to me when I'm phased"
Did he actually think I was protecting Nahuel? I was insulted Jacob truly didn't know how I felt about him. It was my fault I hadn't done a good job showing him how much I truly loved him...obviously.
"Jacob I wasn't ..."
"Yea I know...you weren't thinking..."
I was tired of this, I was tired of never being strong enough to say what I wanted to say; always having the conversation manipulated by everyone else because I was too weak, too broken, too...afraid to speak up.
"Jacob shut up and listen to me" I shouted abruptly.
He stopped talking his eyes wide,
"I wasn't protecting him...but I wasn't going to let you two kill each other. Have you lost your mind? Fighting over me? For what Jacob...?" I quizzed angrily "You already have me...you are never going to lose me. I made a mistake but this...you leaving me has tortured me... it opened my eyes. I can't live without you Jacob; and when I say that I am being completely honest with you"
Once again tears wouldn't stay where they belonged they traveled down my cheeks.
"You have to see that I am new to this Jacob...when you first told me that you imprinted on me...I lied to you, I said that I wasn't scared that it wasn't too much, but I was scared... it was too much...being able to understand what it was I was feeling for you was way too much. And I know thats no excuse... but I understand it now, I accept it now. You will never know how much you mean to me" I wiped tears away "I know I messed us up..."