Chapter 33

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                                                                       Dereks POV

             I sat in my car, engine still running and hands still on the steering wheel. Tapping my thumb against the leather on the steering wheel, I questioned why I was even here. No one would expect me of all people to even be parked outside.

"Just go in, tell her everything!" I said angerly to myself slamming my back against the seat.

"Macy...I've loved you since we were little. Since you weren't allowed in Nick's backyard fort because you were a girl. I hate seeing you with other guys because I know they could never care for you as much as i do. I'm tired of being your brothers bestfriend in your eyes, I want to be more. I want to tell you I love you everyday and call you mine. I even want to be all cheesy on valentines day and get you a monkey that says 'im bananas for you' even though Ive said I can't stand them. You make me want to ...as played out as it is...change" I rehearsed resting my head against the steering wheel.

'But what if she doesn't feel the same way?' I looked at the house knowing she was in there with him and hating that she wasn't with me. "No, he can't have her that easily!" I said sitting up taking the keys out the ignition killing the engine. Getting out of the car I noticed people looking at me, surprised I was there.

"Hey Derek" I heard a girl say from behind me.

"Um hi?" I said with a small wave and started towards the house.

"You don't remember me do you?!" She said cutting infront of me blocking my way.

"To be honest, not really" I said trying to get around her.

"Silly goose, its me Lesli!" She said with a wide smile.

"Wait Macy's Lesli?" I said surprised.

"Yeah but more like Nick's Lesli" she said calmly and looped her arm with mine. "You know at that party I should have chose you instead of him"

"Woah, wait what?!"  I said pulling my arm away. "What do you mean?"

She rolled her eyes "You know at the party, last time we were all together. If I would have chose you, I wouldn't have Carson"

"Who's Carson?!" I asked confused about what we were even talking about.

"My son, How do you not remember? He is your bestfriends kid after-all" She said calmly.

"Oh" I said playing it cool like I believed her but doubting that Nick would have a secret kid. Looking up I saw Macy threw a window in what seemed to be the living room. She seemed to be fine, completely fitting in with the crowd around her.

"hello, earth to Derek!" a small hand waving across my face.

"what?" I asked looking down seeing lesli still there.

"I asked if you wanted to go to my place and hang out" Her arms crossed as she stood closely infront of me.

"No thanks, Im gonna stay here" I said shaking my head. "Thanks though"

"Awww, come on" in somewhat of a whine and a pouty lip.

"Lesli, I already said no" I said then looked back at the house noticing that Macy wasnt in the same spot. Scanning the windows, I found her in the dining room with the jerk from the gardens arms around her. I lightly pushed passed Lesli rushing towards the house, knowing what the guy was capable of and not wanting to risk anything happening to Macy.

"Hey Derek! Grab me later if you change your mind!" Lesli yelled still by the car.

I opened the door only to run into a wall of people. "Excuse me!" I said trying to get threw but no one moved. "Hello! move it!" I said starting to push people out of my way.

I stopped for a second looking ahead to see if she was still there, thankfully she was but the was still there too. I could tell by her expression that she was starting to freak out, the rare expression was one that I wasn't used to and didn't want to get used to. She was too special to feel worry or pain, even if no one else took note of it, I had and always will.

Pushing past the last few people between Macy and me, I could hear her telling him to let go and begging him to leave her alone. 'wheres Tucker?' I questioned as I fought the sea of teenagers that seemed never ending.

As I finally got to the spot where Macy was I noticed Tucker in the far back of the room completely involved in a talk with the rest of the football players. "Idiot" I muttered then my attention was drawn back to Macy. The guy had started to sway while still holding her tightly, her still telling him to stop and let go.

Without even thinking I threw a punch landing it on square on his left cheek bone. His grip on Macy loosened and he stubbled back. Within seconds I found myself on top of him both of us throwing punches at one another. People surrounded us, watching and egging us on.

The one person who wasn't in the group around us was Macy. Where was she? Had he hurt her already? So many thoughts crossed my mind which fueled my anger. He wouldn't touch Macy again!

I stopped when I realized he wasn't throwing punches anymore and the crowd had scattered. As I got up, He quickly got up and pushed past the crowd dissapearing out the door. I wiped my face off noticing I was bleeding from my eyebrow and lip but wasn't too worried about it.

I walked around the party and found Macy with Tucker. I shook my head I stepped closer to tell her what I had come to the party for but froze when she said "Tucker thanks for getting him off me".

My eyes widened, how could she have thought that he had saved her from the jerk. Had she not heard the group or any of the fight? As I took another step closer I saw the happiness in her eyes that had replaced the fear and the smile that completed the happy expression.

How could I ruin that? She loved him and she couldn't love someone like me. I sighed watching the two and realized I her happiness was with him. All I wanted was her happiness even if it stopped me from getting my own happiness.

I fixed my brown leather jacket and pulled the hood from the hoodie under my jacket over my head. I walked pass her leaning in "Macy, I love you" I said as I walked . I knew she wouldn't know who it was who had said it, let alone expect it to be me but I had to let her know.

As I walked out to my car, I could see Lesli was still standing by it. I completely ignoring her wanting to be alone, having let another guy have the girl I loved and care most about. I got in my car not being able to stop thinking about Macy.

I heard my door close and heard a second door close. "You know she wont know you did that" a voice said from outside of my mind. It was the exact phrase I was saying in my mind, which startled me.

"I know" I said to myself thinking I had imagined the comment.

"We can go to my place and 'talk' about it" The voice said and then I realized it was Lesli.

"Whatever, fine. tell me where" I said not even caring or thinking.

I started the car and pulled away from the house, leaving without Macy and without telling Macy I had saved her. I was with Lesli which isnt who I had expected or wanted to leave with. I shook my head turning the radio on, turning up the volume and completely ignoring Lesli.

The house growing smaller in the rearview mirror only rubbing in the fact that Tucker had her and I would never.

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