With Help from @lollipop101
I had smiled at first thinking she was only joking because how could she be pregnant for god’s sake, I had used a condom!
The first thing I had said was “What?” I laughed.
“I knew I shouldn’t have told you, am so sorry Tom” she said with so much remorse and then she put her hands on her eyes and started to pour out with the tears
Now I knew she wasn’t joking but being serious, very serious. I didn’t hate her but I didn’t want to be a dad I was only fourteen at the time however me being me I put a smile on and hugged her and said.
“Cathy, am not bothered babe ok?” I lied
She turned her head up to see my face expression and she knew I wasn’t bothered but instead over the moon (which I wasn’t obviously but I just had to put on a fake face).
“So stop crying it’s not good for you and the baby” I winked and smiled at the same time to Cathy
She threw her arms around me, “Tom, thank you, I love you so much!”
I had felt cold for not wanting this “thing” in her but somehow I needed her to get rid of this “thing” without pushing her too much or putting too much pressure on her. I loved Cathy till that moment she told she was pregnant, that selfish cow- she was going to ruin my life if she gives birth to that “thing”.
“Love you to” I replied quietly
“Are you sure Tom you’re not bothered at all?” she queried
I was looking into the next field concentrating on the sheep mother who was looking after her lamb. Would I even be a good dad? I kept asking myself.
Being a dad at fourteen? I needed some outside advice from my good next door neighbour Marcus Fernsby! Perfect I had thought to myself.
“...earth to Tom?”
I was still ignoring her before she poked me in my face.
“What?” I had shouted
“Am sorry, but I didn’t plan for this to happen”
The more she talked the more anger was building up inside me I had felt like just murdering her and when life was going so well for me then this happened, this “thing” would ruin it all I had thought to myself.
I had laughed first then I said “Bullshit, either you slept with someone else or you broke the condom, either way this was your fault and not mine!” I shouted in her face.
She didn’t reply- she just slapped me instead and started walking off while balling her eyes out. At the time I didn’t feel guilty one bit for shouting at her but now when I look back if only I didn’t shout at her then... it doesn’t matter, you will find out later anyway.
“Keep your fuc@ing present as well, you bastard!” she shouted so loudly the old couple walking their dog looked at Cathy in disgust and she said to them “What are you two old shit’s looking at!” The old people just basically ran off and gave me evils as well but didn’t bother me at all.
I saw her walk off into the distant towards school however I walked the other way and took the scenic route to school as then it would take longer and I wouldn’t have to see Cathy and her mates giving me shit before period one. I looked the countryside and thought to myself am sure my mum never said school was this hard; I had blamed the way technology and the world has changed since. I looked at the birds and scenery and took a deep breath of the air before I decided to walk on to school. The forest which had lead to the road where school was and when I climbed over the fence I sighed and walked into school; I was an hour late.
The school were pissed that I was late but I didn’t give a crap; they can go f@ck themselves. As soon as they marked me late I slowly and painfully had to walk to history where guess what I was sat next to Cathy; this was going to be very awkward I thought to myself. I opened the door and someone shouted “Bastard!” however the teacher had not heard who said it but shouted at all of them. He told me to sit down and unsurprisingly Cathy was there looking completely the other way and not giving me an ounce of eye contact. Thankfully all her friends weren’t in the same class as her. The awkwardness was getting quite bad, it was half way through the lesson and Cathy still hadn’t talked to me yet until she turned her head to look at me and I smiled at her and she just couldn’t help herself but smile back. I knew she had loved me to bits and I had kind of loved her too however my feelings for Marcus were growing nearly every day I had spent with him but for now at this moment in time I had to keep it a secret I had thought to myself.