Please Be Mine Again (Jai Brooks)

Post-Epilogue

Post-Epilogue... I can get away with that right?

Have you ever felt that everything in your life if somehow simply perfect?

Have you ever felt so in love that you feel so... alive?

He kisses me then tells me I'm beautiful.

He embraces me and declares his love for me.

He holds my hand and utters, "It's important and I want you to listen good."

I senselessly nod my head before swallowing a lump in my throat. The ominous sensation increasingly engulfs me making the whiskers on my arm rise. 

"We're been high. And we've also been very low. But we worked through that and we've both tried so hard to make everything work out between us. I know it's not fair on you that I keep leaving you and coming bac but I want you to know- really want you to realise that you mean the world to me. And everytime I say things to you, I-I really do mean it. I mean every little word I whisper to you and I whisper not because it's not valued but because I would only ever say it to you. Do you understand what I'm saying to you?"

Again I nodded.

"The next bit is crucial but please," his lips met mine and melted onto it, "Please be honest."

He looks at me, his chestnut eyes gleaming with emotions: love, happiness but also... fear.

"Will you, Skylar Edwards, marry me, Jai Brooks?" After he spoke the words, my whole body felt disorientated- my stomach especially felt churned. I was unable to think straight.

I could now see in his eyes that he was disappointed. But why? He asked me to marry him... and I haven't answered yet. WAIT! I haven't answered yet!

It seemed my anatomy snapped back to normal as my internal self commanded.

Now I had to answer.

 Truthfully.

Was it worth lying to someone you love to save their feelings of hurt? Even if you felt wrongly about it would you still do it in order for them to be happy even if partially you weren't?

My answer was simply: yes.

"Yes. Yes Jai Brooks, I will marry you and enjoy doing so." I blurted. Not a lie but the truth. Sure, my insane, loud mind was screaming "NO! YOU'RE NOT READY! FOOLISH GIRL!" but I didn't seem to give two fucks. I was madly, deeply and crazily in love with this boy and HECK YEAH I'M GOING TO MARRY HIM!

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Ronnie, a good friend of mine, was hastily running around frantically yelling curse words as she attempted to find a hair pin.

Maria, the hair dresser, was yelling at Ronnie to hurry up and that this was a matter of hair or death- she takes her art of hairdressing quite seriously I find.

And finally my mum, the woman gave me the gift of life by going through 8 hours in constant pain trying to push me out of her vagina- oh that woman, was weeping on the right-hand corner of the room because I didn't want to see her cry or I would too so my solution was to send her to the corner.

As we waited patiently, aside from Maria, I wondered how my dad was coping over at Jai's side. Was he giving Jai pep-talks? Or was he also sobbing in the corner somewhere?

"I FOUND IT!" Ronnie announced with grave happiness and Maria sighed with relief.

Once the pin was handed to the expert she ever so carefully slid the grip on my hair dragging some outlying strands of brown. 

"Perfect. You look so ready! But do you feel it?"

"I'm scared shitless."

"Language Skylar!" Mum calld from her corner.

"Sorry!"

I took a deep breath and I mean pretty deep as breaths can possibly get.

"I think my ready." I smiled.

It was very girlish but we squealed and squeaked like mice because of our excitment but I don't think mice get excited- they might or how else would they reproduce? ANYWAY, let's not go towards that territory...

 It all happened so slowly but it was only a few minutes.

My heart was pounding rapidly trying to break through my ribs. Frankly, my hands were shaking but I gripped onto the boquet tighter and also my father's arm- I hoped it wasn't too tight.

'Remember just look straight at Jai and you'll be fine.' I remembered the word of advice that Gina gave me just before. So I did.

I glanced down the aisle at him. He looked absolutely dashing in his suit. It felt like some sort of dream; there was almost this glow on the border of my peripheral view, it was magical.

When we reached the alter, I gave my dad a peck on the cheek and whispered, "Thank you." He nodded before talking his seat next to mum.

I smiled at Jai, trying not to show him how terrified I really was and judging by his facial feature he was trying to do the same.

After the priest started talking, I got lost in Jai's eyes. I was no longer nervous- maybe a bit- but I was sure of this.

"Now Jai repeat after me..."

A/N: ABRUPT BUT UNFINISHED.