I was bummed that we had to leave Amazon because I still didn’t tell her how I truly felt about her. She fell asleep while watching Alvin and the chipmunks. She was stretched out laying on all 4 of us but her head was on my lap so I could see her beautiful face. Walter gestured us to follow him so he didn’t wake up Amazon so we did. The boys got their bags and left. I my eyes filled with tears as I kissed Amazon on her forehead then followed the boys to the car. I was silent the whole journey to the airport because I was depressed about Amazon not being with me for a whole month.
We arrived at our LA compound and it was hotter than I remember. I walked upstairs to see the spare bedroom looking like this
I was confused but didn’t say anything. We all went to dance rehearsals and saw 4 girls stretching. I had a bad feeling about this.
Walter: These are your video girls for #1 Girl
Ray: Hello mama
Girl1: hi I’m Sarah and I’ll be Roc’s girl
Girl2: hi I’m Cindy and I’ll be Prince’s girl
Girl3: hey I’m Janelle and I’ll be prod’s girl
Girl4: hey I’m Leila and I’ll be Ray’s girl
These girls were all over us not that I didn’t want that but I wanted Amazon so bad…who am I kidding I’m not gonna have a chance with her. She’s an A lister and I’m a D lister. It’s time to put on my bad boy act on and grab this hoe. So after practice I took Cindy outside and flirted with her a little then it got really serious.
Cindy: you know I don’t want a serious relationship. I want a quickie
Prince: wow you’re a real hoe
Cindy: yup so you up for it?
Prince: yeah sure
I lead her to my hotel room and we did it. It felt so wrong because I didn’t love her but I did it and now ive made a huge mess. Cindy left and I had a long shower thinking about what to do. I went to bed and stared at the ceiling suddenly, I heard rain from outside which reminded me of London then reminded me of Amazon. I groaned in frustration and went on my laptop to Skype her.
Prince: hey its Princeton
Amazon: Ello, ello, ello mate you alright? *cockney accent*
Prince: yeah I’m good
Amazon: you’re lying to me you sound really depressed
Prince: I know…ok I did something really sinful
Amazon: what? You’re free mason?*laughing*
Prince: No! Never!...i had sex with some random chick
Amazon: OMG noooooo! Shuuuut uuuup! Babes that is really man whorish
Prince: I know right?
Amazon: I can’t be associated with you anymore
Prince: what? Why not?
Amazon: you are a sinner…
Prince: just let me
Amazon: let me finish! You are a sinner! You are no longer pure! You have experienced the pleasure that only a lover man should feel! ugh
Prince: wait! I don’t give two shits about what you think because you’re not important to me at all. You’re just some random chick I met I never even liked you and you’re giving me a lecture about my sin? What about yours? You fucked men haven’t you?
Amazon: no I haven’t I have never opened my legs for anyone. I can’t believe you said all of that about me. You’re supposed to be my best friend *tearing up*
Prince: well not anymore *looks away*
She logged off and I threw my laptop across the room and it broke into two. I screamed into my pillow.
Me and Roc did some extra practices because I couldn’t dance to save my life. I only signed up for this to be close to him but had no idea dancing was involved. I thought I would just have to flirt with him and look pretty. Roc and I were becoming good friends in the space of a week and I really wanted to be more than that but I could tell something was holding him back. We were in his hotel room watching tv and we head muffled screaming and something being broken but we ignored it.
Sarah: do you like me?
Roc: yeah we cool
Sarah: No I mean more than that
Roc: well yeah
Sarah: so why aren’t we officially together?
Roc: … *plays with fingers*
Sarah: you always do this! You can’t be a man and grow some balls to tell me what’s stopping you from being with me!
Roc: Look! You really want to know? Well here goes I have been cheated on so many times and the last time she actually slept with the hotel bell boy next door to my hotel room! That’s why I cannot trust or go through all this shit again! Now there’s the answer you wanted so bad!