A Letter A Day

Day 2 – 14 February

Letter 2 – To my crush

Dear ……………. (insert your wonderfully unusual name here)…………….

***CRINGE***

The first thought on my mind as I write is: Today. Is. Freaking. Valentine’s. Day. I don’t know if you know this but it’s kinda your fault that I hate Valentine’s Day. Today is all about love and all that gooey, lovey-dovey stuff that everyone goes crazy about. I’m not into it and you don’t share the same feelings. You’re the reason why.

I know that we can’t ever be together but I can’t help but wish that we could.

Every time I see you, you make me feel weak and you know me: I can’t and won’t feel weak or inferior for anyone. But it’s like you have this power over me; like whenever I’m around you, I’m not loud, energetic, weird, strong-willed, fun, crazy smart-assed Leeroy anymore. I’m just plain old quiet and insecure Lerato and I really don’t like the fact that you can make me feel so naïve and innocent when I’ve tried my best to hide that vulnerable side of me.

I really did care about you though. Even when I was shouting at you and laughing at you, I really cared because I loved who you were. I loved how you were a child of God and that you didn’t let anyone deter you from that path. I loved how we joked around and those warm hugs you gave me. I loved our debates over nothing. I loved how whenever we danced, I left practice smiling because you were there.

I hated it when you left. I hated it when you turned into a jerk because of those stupid friends of yours. I hated it when you stopped saying hi when I saw you. I hated all the rumours that were going around; when people said that you were dating a girl just to make me jealous because you knew how I felt. But I guess that’s kinda my fault too.

You must understand how hard this is for me because anyone of my friends could read this and instantly know who I’m talking about. So I’ll just leave it there.

I wish you hadn’t changed.

Love LeeRoy x