SOMETIMES LIFE MAKES YOU WANNA DIE!

It was a cold winter day when all I saw was children playing with their dads and moms in the snow and all I wanted to be doing is the same thing as them. My father left my family when I was 3 years old. Ever since then I've been depressed knowing that my family will never be a whole, everyday I wonder how different life would be if we were still a family. As time goes by i start to grow little by little and i finally get connected to real life. Now its spring and i am now 13 years old and living back in New York, which there was a fire while i was living in new jersey for 6th grade it was a living hell. Im trying to get through everything in life but going to school in new jersey wasn't really helping me at all. In new jersey i went to a school with hundreds on students ended up that each of those hundreds weren't my friends, they have put around rumors before saying that i was sick with the swine flu so whenever i would get near somebody they will move away. Gladly I'm out of that school the bullying is still going on but now is calmer. I hurt myself this year during math class because i was getting extreme bullying during study skills one of the students who were bullying me saw me cutting myself with my pen and she told my math teacher so i was sent to my very first meeting with the school counselor. That whole week  i had nightmares about everything in my life. I wanted to die soo bad but i couldn't let them win. There was this one girl named Anne she was a bitch didn't even know me and started to talk shit about me to the max. i couldn't take it anymore so i hurt myself again even though i promised i wouldn't. A couple years have past i'm now 15 and i'm passing to the 11th grade i'm so happy if i was to hurt myself and die i wouldn't be here right now i'm more confident than before still really insecure but more confident :) i'm class 2015 hopefully and thankfully i make it until then. STAY STRONG that one day you will make it far in life don't make the mistakes i made in life you wont get really far. Just take this one step and be happy don't hurt yourself DO NOT let them win because people love you out there.