The Murderer (On Hold)

Chapter Two

“Dear Diary,

Last year, my best friend was murdered. Last year, I decided to find the suspect.

My mother has been worried about me. Strange considering that she’s never really paid much attention to me. Ever since that day, my feelings have been censored. I haven’t showed much of anything but blankness. The feeling that I had before the murder? Gone. I stopped socializing completely, realizing I really don’t want to talk to anyone anymore. I’ve become a shadow. My old friends worry about me, but like I said, I don’t pay attention. My grades have somewhat maintained, but I don’t really pay much attention anymore. All I have on my mind is my dead best friend. My dead boyfriend…

I have tried to find evidence, to see if I could find out if the suspect left something. But they we’re smart enough to clean up anything they left behind… But that doesn’t mean that I’ve given up on finding the person responsible for ruining my life. I know he’s out there. Karma has a weird way of getting back at you.

Mother is still together with her boyfriend. I still don’t like him though. They’re something odd about him.

He gives me strange looks, like he’s trying to hide something.

But maybe I’m over reacting? Wouldn’t be surprised, I’m as paranoid as a cat near water…

I’m sorry that I never caught up with you, and I’m sorry I haven’t written in here for a year. But I couldn’t find myself to do anything that I didn’t have to do. I’ll try and vent my feeling more often. I forgot how nice it felt to write everything down.”

I sighed and got up from my bed. I lifted my bed sheet, lifted my mattress, and put my diary there. I went to the bathroom to take a shower, but so many things rushed through my mind. The feeling of him holding me in his arms, the memories we had. I was overwhelmed. I could feel myself getting dizzy. I turned off the water and grabbed the towel, and rushed to my room.  

I quickly put on a pair of shorts and a tank top and put my red curly hair in a pony tail. I looked at myself in the mirror and decide that there’s nothing else that I can do, and head down stairs. My mother is in the kitchen, and she has a sad smile and says,

“Hi honey, how are you today?”

“Fine as always mother.” I say and give her the famous fake smile. I’ve had to use the fake smile a lot since that day. Pretend like nothing happened. Pretend like it isn’t killing me inside. Even though I feel like I’m a walking zombie every day.

I quickly grab a granola bar, and walk outside. It’s 6:30 in the morning, and it’s pitch black outside still. I get in my Camaro, which was 17th birthday present from my mother, and head to school. On the way there, I find it hard to concentrate on the road. When I finally made it, I tried to find a parking spot, and when I finally find one at the front of the school, I grab my bag, turn off the ignition and get out. I locked it and went straight to my locker.  

When I had a few strides left to go, my old friends came up to me. I was surprised, and all I could do was gasp. They haven’t even attempted to talk to me. Knowing I didn’t want to be bothered.

“Hey Ana, how have you been? I missed you!” My old best friend Terra came out of the group, and hugged me. I was too stunned to react, but she didn’t let go until I returned the hug. When I finally hugged her back, she inched back and looked into my eyes. “Ana, it looks like you haven’t slept in forever!”

“Yeah Terra, I haven’t been in the best of moods lately.” I said kind of harshly. I immediately regretted it. Maybe it’s time I start talking to her again. She’s known me for about as long as Sam did. I quickly said something else, “What brings you guys to my locker?”

Jonathan one of my other friends, said it was because Terra wanted to see if I was okay.

“I’m fine guys, really. It’s nothing that I can’t handle.” I lied

Terra looks at me, knowing I was lying. This girl can read me like a book. I then realize that I miss her like crazy. The other guy’s believe my lie and they leave me and Terra alone. When I see that they’re far away enough, I slam into Terra and let out all the tears that I have held back for the past year.