Finally Found

"Geez, you are bad. Not that I am complaining." I sighed, curling myself into his chest and snuggling myself there.

Esra was running his hand up and down my back causing me to shiver under his touch.

"Will it always be like this?" I asked him.

"Like what? What do you mean?" He asked me, confusion covering his face.

"Will I always feel like that when you touch me? Will I always have this insane attraction to you? I mean, it just seems crazy to me." I searched his face for the truth.

"Well, the closer we get, the more intense it will be. After you change it will be even more so." he turned me so that we were facing, me straddling his lap. "You see, even though you are a human right now, you can still feel it, because you are my soul mate. The more you accept me into your life as your soul mate, the more you will feel and understand. The stronger our connection will be. Does it make sense?" He was looking at me like he wasn't saying what he was trying to.

I nodded my head at him.

"Yea, I get it. For the most part. But what if I don't want to be a vampire?" I asked him softly, looking down at my hands. "What if I can't live with what turning entails for me?"

"Hey" he lifted my chin to look at him "we will deal with that later. Right now, I just want you to know that I love you and I would do anything in the world for you. OK?" he cupped my face with his hands and kissed me softly and sweetly. I wanted more when he pulled away. Just that small kiss left me breathless. I let out a small whimper.

He chuckled at me "Hm, does that mean you are ready for me to take you to bed?" His eyes darkend, and I could feel his excitement at the thought pressing against me.

"No, I think I am really tired actually. You can take me to bed, but not for that, mister. You have had enough for one day." I got up from his lap while teasing him.

I was half way across the room when his arms wrapped around me, stopping me. He turned me to face him and ran his lips down my throat, his arms pulling me to him tightly. He was teasing me back now, trying to break my will. I could do this. I could resist him. Maybe, I thought to myself, fighting back the moan that was threatening to escape me.

"Are you sure your tired?" he murmured against my skin. I could also hear the smirk I was sure he was wearing.

I gathered myself, trying to clear the lustful thoughts he was causing me to have. I gave him a fake yawn.

"Oh yes, I don't know how I'm still standing. It has just been such a long day." I smiled at him, mischeif dancing in my eyes.

"Hm, really? Tired, huh? Ok, well go get yourself settled in and I will be there in a second." He told me, walking to the closet.

I crawled into the bed, wondering what he was up to. I snuggled beneath the covers, making myself comfortable. I watched the doorway, waiting for him to come out. A minute later he did, all he had done was remove his shoes.

"I thought you were coming to bed with me?" I asked confused

"I am." he smiled, his eyes glinting at me, a small smile playing on his face.

I layed there as he continued to move closer to me. He slowly took his shirt off. He was trying to tease me and I knew it. The question was, was I going to play into it, or could I actually fight the feelings he was throwing at me off? I wanted him, we both knew it, but I was determined to see if I could stop the wanting I was feeling. I wanted to know if I could stop the idea of being his mate. I really did love him, but being the stubborn person that I am I needed to know if I could fight it. It's not like I would really walk away from him, I just wanted to know if I could.

"You think you can resist me?" he chuckled at me. "You should know better my love. I told you how this works. You cannot stop yourself from wanting me. I'm sorry, but it's not gonna happen." he stated with a full smirk crossing his face.

"Oh really?" I said, laughing at him. "I think I can resist you. No one is irrestable, not even me." I told him, raising an eyebrow at him.

"Really?" He looked at me with challenge in his eyes. "You think you can walk away from me, and resist all my worldly charms? I bet you that you cant."

"Oh, I bet you I can. I may love you, but that is by choice." I think. Could I really not give him what he wanted? I wondered. I was already doubting myself and I hadn't even agreed to his challenge yet. No! I can do this. At least I hope I could.