The Young And Hopeless.

Chapter One

"I don't need help!" I yell glaring at my dad he was shaking his head back and forth. "Your going to group therapy, Snow. I don't care what you say." He looks down at me pouting and kneels to my level. "Your fifteen and had so many things happen to you.. You can sit here and say nothings wrong with you." He pulled up my sleeve revealing my cuts all up and down my arm. "I'm fine.." I whisper back to him. He gives me a look. "Your going, get your bag and get in the car." I suck in a deep breath and walk off to my room grabbing my bag and walking out with him to the car. I pull down the sun visor and flip it open to the mirror fixing my eyeliner. I looked at my light blue eyes and super white long hair and thickened my eye liner. My face was oval but not to bad and my nose was perfect not to big not to small. "I know you probably hate me right now but I'm just worried ok?" Dad said glancing at me and backing out of the garage. "I'm fine dad don't worry." I gave him a look and he nodded driving forward. I pull out my iPod and start listening to Flyleaf. It was about a twenty minute ride to the meeting place. They held meetings everyday, from 9:00 A.M to 12:00 P.M This is going to be so much fun. "I'll pick you up at 12. I love you." Dad says watching me grab my bag and roll up my iPod sticking it in my back pocket. "See ya." I say closing the door and walking in the building. The place wasn't very big, it was more like a home than a meeting for troubled teens. I look around and see a group of kids my age, and went to take a seat before some fat lady stepped in front of me. "What's your name kid?" She asked, shoving a clipboard at me. I take, it writing down my name. "Snow Evans." I say, the lady gives me a look. "That's your real name?" She asks, raising an over bushed brow at me. I nod. "Yes ma'am, that is." "Go sit next to Aiden." She says, pointing to a guy with shoulder length jet black hair. I nod and sit next to him glancing at him. Some guy comes in and starts talking to us.

 "So guys, we have a new member to our group. Her name is Snow Evans." He says, some kids stare at me, others laugh at my name, I bite my lip and give them dirty looks. I bet they don't even have problems. Maybe problems like, my daddy didn't buy me the car I wanted! I'm depressed and need group therapy for that! So BAM! Here they are, a week later in group therapy, over a fucking car."Were all going to go and introduce ourselfs, and say why were here, so Snow knows why. Then she'll explain why shes here." I looked at him shaking my head no. I don't want anyone knowing anything about me. Bad enough for me they already know my name, let alone what my brothers and his friends had done. "I'm Rachel and I'm here because my best friend got killed a month ago." She said looking at me. What does she want me to say? "Oh.. I'm really sorry.." I just stick with that, as the guy next to her pipes up, "I'm gay and I get made fun of so, I tried to commit suicide." Jeesh that's horrible.. The next few story's were similar to the ones before, then came Aiden. He was so hot. His eyes were the lightest blue like mine, he had his bangs swooped over in his eyes, and his lip was pierced, he looked to be tall and thin. "Well.." He began, everyone automatically fell silent. "About two months ago, I lost my mother. My best friend. And my girlfriend. My dads a druggie, and I'm going into foster care. So to ease the pain, I started to do drugs and eventually almost killed myself and my little sister. They told me I needed help and I agreed." I look up at him and feel my eyes water a little I know what its like to have all that happen to you.

Its not the greatest feeling to live with. They were all looking at me. I sat back and took a deep breath. "I know now that I'm not the only one struggling through hard things. Well for starters.. I was 10 when my mom got murdered. We were on the subway, and she was getting robbed . She refused to give up her purse, then got shot. They bailed after they figured out she had a kid with her..." They all stared at me with sad silent eyes, waiting, so I continued. "Then my oldest brother Mason, and his friend were over. Mason I looked up to, he was a great brother to me.." I said as I started to cry a little. "I.. I cant.." I say to the guy who was looking down at me. He nodded. "You have to Snow." I shook my head. It suddenly got really hot in here I couldn't breath I started to gasp for air. Someone handed me a paper bag, I started to use it as a ventilator. "When your done, you can continue." Says the guy. Aiden looked at him as if he was stupid. "Shes having a panic attack, and you want her to continue? Obviously shes not ready to share that much yet, jeesh Graig give the girl time to adjust and get to know us. No one wants to come in to a group of strangers and share their entire life story." The other kids started to nod, I put down my bag looking down my cheeks turning red. I can fight my own battles.. But it felt good to have a complete stranger, a hot complete stranger none the less, stick up for me. "She has a month to adjust to us." Graig says ripping the bag from my hand. What a douche.