Unspoken Sorrows

I want to speak to you

in the language of sorrow,

Shed those liqiud crystals

for happiness which I cant borrow.

When I look in the mirror

of life, I see, 

a damn good actress

who lookes same as me.

She hides her tears

in a best ever make up of smile,

But if you look in her eyes,

You'll find tears in a pile.

And then she reminds

me of my sorrows,

And my happiness

which everyone borrows.

I look away from her

and from my self and my fears,

Knowing the sunshine isn't my friend,

but my best friends are my tears.

But its my fate that

even my tears are away from me,

And I miss that real smile,

on my face I used to see.

My sorrows are unspoken

as the words are lost,

And sadness dissolves in me

as the happiness is at high cost.

The world thinks

that I'm happy 

But they don't know

that my life is so crappy.

I still smile and no one

except you can see through it,

I thank you that I don't need

to say about my sorrows a bit.

As my sorrows are unspoke

And there are no more words to say,

And these secrets I'm hiding,

now no more I can bay.

But I in believe you

Better than in myself,

As you know whats better for me,

and you know me better than myself.

I still see the light of hope

But my self-esteem is on the edge of knife,

Let whatever may come,

I'll just believe in you and love my life.