i loved him

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i loved him

he made me love him

he made fun of me for it

welcome to my world

he lied and blinked his blue eyes

he can’t make me hate him

no matter how much i try

i can’t despise him

no matter how much i want to

he never wanted me

the way my mind works

the light went out

empty heart

what’s going to fill it up

the trouble is

i miss him often

i never want to see his face again

but i miss him all the same

the pain’s not worth it

and neither should he be

i’ve been told he wasn’t worth me

but i feel it the other way around

if the one i wanted wasn’t good enough

who the heck will be

the sky bleeds with snow

my heart bled salt

how does it beat

swollen as it is

how does your heart beat

when there’s no one to hold it safe

lock it in a box

and throw away the key

how do you keep it safe

swallow and choke

choke out the life that beats

a caged bird flutters within

and nobody sets it free