Finding Myself

I stand up

In front on the crowd

I read my part

Speaking clear and loud

I slip my hand into hers

A smile is shared

 Another layer comes off

And I don’t have a care

I curl myself up

And cover my weaknesses

Undoing everything

That I have yet to begin

I slash the razor across my wrist

My pain leaking out from within

I toss the metal across the room

A sob tears through my lips

Already missing the painful kiss

Another layer goes away

Every time I don’t cut a day

But things get worse

I prepare for a ride in a hearse

They take me away

Filled me with hate

I didn’t say I love you in time

It was too late

I’m coming home

You hug me tightly

Instead of hello

I kiss you lightly

Another layer falls away

Overwhelmed

Gone hysterical

Falling apart, to pieces

Wishing for a miracle

To save me from myself

All the shit’s not worth it

But I didn’t see before

That to get the benefits

You take less before more

I’m to the final layers

I’m farther than my peers

Beyond my years

Destroying masks

My façade

Tearing down walls

And most of all

Finding myself