"I've got my ticket and I want to go home."
My heart is breaking.
My heart is breaking.
My heart is breaking.
For the lives that will be led
Without me.
For the tears that will be shed
Without me.
For the laughter that will seize
Without me.
For the bonds that will form
Without me.
For the love that will grow
Without me.
For the trials that will be faced
Without me.
For the lives that will be led
Without me.
My face is wet.
My hands are shaking.
I face the unknown.
Looking behind,
I see love.
I see happiness.
I see belonging.
I see achievement.
I see knowing, and being known.
I see love.
Looking ahead,
I see
Blank.
Blank
Blank
Blank
Blank
Blank
Blank
Blank.
BLANK.
No wonder I'm shaking.
No wonder I'm glancing behind.
No wonder my trepidation nags.
Doesn't anybody see?
Who understands?
I've always asked,
When will my life begin?
I still want it to.
I need it to.
But looking behind...
I don't mean it to.
And yet,
My heart is breaking.
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Hey again!
I'm not sure if anyone's even reading this, but it's okay. Maybe someday, someone will. I wrote this poem almost a year back. I felt unsure some of the stuff in my life, and I didn't know what to do. It was pretty sad then. So, i wrote about it. What I'm trying to say is that writing saves lives. Really. so, hope you like this.
A week after I'd written this poem, Life presented me with a new ray of hope, and things have been better since. It all led me to believe that there's a God after all, and that miracles do happen once in a while. I'd dedicate this to a friend of mine, but sadly, he's still not on Wattpad. Neither is he in my life anymore. And I don't know the reason "why" to both.
But I'd still like to say this, in hope he reads it someday. You broke a promise. But you're still my friend. I miss you. The video on the right says it all.
p.s- another one for you Parsa..thanks for telling Jane to make me the cover. Btw, Still think I'm awesome? :P
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Luna Cogitationis
Poetryyeah. just me. and my poems here. go check it out if it seems any good to you. FYI, "luna cogitation's" is latin for "thoughts of the moon". love, ***~Annie~***