I want to punch you,
Really fucking hard.
(In the arm, of course.
I couldn’t imagine hurting
A face like yours.)
I want to scream at you
The feelings I’ve been
Keeping inside for so long.
(Tucked away,
Behind boxes of photographs,
Snapshots from our childhood.)
I want to tell you where
This mess started.
(With me, and you,
A simple friendship
Where the pathetic one starts
To see the strong one form more
Than what has ever been
Offered up, or even considered.)
I want to kiss you
Hard on the mouth.
(The kind that bruise,
And linger.
The kind that you feel
As deep as your bones.)
I want you to
Think on things.
(Please, I’m willing
To not be with you,
As long as I can still have you.)
I want to apologize
For fucking a good thing up.
(I just don’t know
How much longer I can watch you,
Content without me,
Not knowing about me.)
I want to say,
“Sorry about all of this,
I never really meant for this to happen.”
( I would think,
“Please, please, please,
Love me back.
I want something,
I finally feel something,
Let one good thing come true.)
I want you to stay,
Forever and always.
(You’re my best friend,
And I need you to breathe.)
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So, this is going to be a book of poetry, all written by myself. If you've read my previous work of Someone Like You, a Zayn Malik fan fiction, I really hope you'll consider reading this. This will be having some of my most personal thoughts, feeling and experiences. I hope you enjoy what I write, and support me.
Much love. xx
