My Alpha Mate I Hate (Editing/rewriting. )

what the heck??!!

Kyle...p..o.....v... 

Weird dream. 

I could've sworn Sophia was here with me, laying in my bed with me, talking to me, but why would she be? she rejected me, why would she be here? why woud she ever come back?

I know i dont deserve her, i never have and never will, maybe thats why she doesnt want me, if i could take back the last few years i would but i cant, so i just have to live with the truth , i'll never have her. 

I open my eyes, and the world spins a bit, im still kinda hung over, i know im to young to drink but i had too, i couldnt take it, i needed some way to just be lost for awhile, so ive been pretty out of it all week, thats probably why i thought she was here with me. 

I move a little and hear a soft moan, i look over beside me, oh man what did i do?!

But when i look over its not some random girl with me, its Sophia, whoa! she is here! in my bed with me! oh my gosh i must be dreaming!

I move slowly as not too wake her too lay beside her better, i roll onto my side and look at her,  dang, she looked pretty sleeping, so very beautiful, amzing, I want too kiss her..and that wasn't all i wanted to do, 

I try to lean over to kiss her but before i can her eyes fling open and she gasped, I jerk back, i dont want to upset her any, thats the last thing i want is to make her run away, and end this beautiful moment. 

She looks up at me and I look at her, neither of us move, its like if we do something we might wake up and it will all be over then, one moment we're just looking at each other then somehow we're kissing,  

I move us so that i'm on top of her, leaning over her but never breaking the kiss, the kiss is full of so much, and i never want to have to let her go, because really if i did this moment could be over, and who knows this maybe all i ever get. 

But after a few moments I pull back to take a gulp of air, she does too, we both just stay there trying to breathe, catching our breath, I kinda wait for her too hit, kick, kill me, but nope instead she tangles her hands in my hair and  pulls me down for another kiss. 

Which i gladly give. 

And this goes on awhile and i wonder if i couldd get away with geting her shirt off, because i want to touch her, but i deside not too push it, im already getting so much more than i deserve because she is here with me , kissing me, 

She breaks the kiss this time too breathe. 

"You really need too tell me to stop." i warn her panting 

"Kyle..I'm so lost ...." she says looking up at me, she looks cunfused, and i hate that, I sigh. 

"What should i do?"i ask because i just dont know know anymore,  

"I don't know." she says looking over at the wall, 

Now i could've took this for all its worth, since I'm pretty sure i could get away with anything right now, but no, i do the hardest thing I've ever done, 

I get off her and lay beside her on my side, I pick up her hands and hold them in mine, my hands cover her's, she's so small, She looks at me, with a strange look, 

"Did you really just do that?"she asked  

"I think i did hum first time for ever thing, i guess" i say with a small laugh, she smiles,

"Yeah guess you really do love me." she jokes, 

"Yeah i do but I'm sorry i freaked you out. "i say looking at her, she's looking at me again, our eyes are locked for a moment. 

"Its not you, its me" she says

"Oh come on dumbest break up line ever." i say glancing away from her,  

"No it is! even the thought of love, it scares me ever since what happened too my mom.it...left me...broken" she says and i can tell that she is fighting tears, I reach over and pet her hair. 

"Its okay you know i would never hurt you, not now , not ever again." i say,  

"Yeah but i never thought he'd do that either, he never even yelled till all that started! he loved her and look what happened, my dad loved his wife and he cheated on her! the reason im even here is because love has failed people." she says  

"Its different you're my mate, i love you." i say, because really i dont know what else i can say here, She takes a deep breath. 

"Yeah well he and my mom were mated too," she says, looking at me, what does she mean?

"What?" i ask 

"Yup he was her mate." she says 

"Wait don't you mean she was his mate?"i say,  

"Nope, my mother was a wolf too." she says looking at me waiting for me to say something, but im kinda in shock here,

"Really? so that means you'r-" i say

"Yup so ima half  wolf, like Matt." she says 

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