Pressure

[8] Paige

When you came home,

Your mom didn’t even recognize you.

When you came home,

Your mom threatened to call the police.

When she realized it was you,

She didn’t care.

She didn’t ask,

About the bruises.

She didn’t ask,

Where you had been.

She didn’t ask,

Why you had left.

Instead,

She walked to her room,

And left you to yourself.

No hug,

No hello,

No love.

The only thing you said to her,

Was to not let Dan in the house.

She nodded her head,

And for the past two months,

She kept to her gesture.

He had texted you,

Called you,

Stalked you.

So you got rid of your phone,

Never answered the door,

And got your mom to drive you to school.

You missed being loved,

But you didn’t miss Dan.

Instead,

You wait for love to find you.

You regularly talk to Aiden,

But you know you can’t have him.

You’re impatient.

It’s been two months,

And love hasn’t come.

You desperately need it.

Without love,

You are nothing.

Dad can’t give it to you,

Because he’s dead.

Mom can’t give it to you,

Because she’s broken.

Aiden can’t give it to you,

Because he’s given it to someone else.

He has Katie,

So why would he need you?

You’re in a rut,

A place where you’re sad,

Unhappy,

Shattered.

Fact:

Without love you’re lost.

Fiction:

With love you’re found.

Fact:

You once loved Dan.

Fiction:

You still did.

Fact:

With him you felt something.

Fiction:

It was something good.

Fact:

You thought he loved you.

Fiction:

He still does.

Fact:

Your heart misses Dan.

Fiction:

You like that it does.

Fact:

He is the only one you have.

Fiction:

You’re the only one he has.

Fact:

You know he can never truly love you.

Fiction:

You care.

Fact:

You just want love.

Fiction:

Dan can give it to you.

Fact:

You can pretend.

Fiction:

You won’t go back to Dan.