Ok so. I know I'm not the only girl obsessed with nash grier here sooo I wanted to share my feels with all you mrs. Griers out there ;) Im still new to this but still, enjoy :)
My name is melina and I have long brown hair and dark green eyes. I'm 15 years old and 5'5. I'm not the typical teenage girl because I've been bullied and it doesn't do me any better that I'm a pretty reserved person. Thank goodness for my best friend, Nash Grier, who I could absolutely not live without. We've been friends since we were about 13 and I have to admit, I've always had a little crush on him. I mean, it's hard not to. He's the sweetest guy ever, always there when I need him, constantly telling me I'm beautiful, and as a MAJOR plus, he is verrryyyy attractive. Brown hair, a goofy but adorable smile, these beautiful blue eyes, and lips that you literally have to hold yourself back from kissing. Of course I've never told anyone about these feelings because it would totally ruin our friendship, which I would hate. And speaking of things I've never told anyone about, I have this other secret too. I self harm. And yes, I know it's a horrible thing to do but I just need to do it sometimes. Aside from people bullying me, I have a totally shitty life. My dad left my mom and I about two years ago and since then, my mom had turned into a total bitch. She's abusive and being an only child doesn't seem like the best thing, as I'm the one having the anger taken out on. When my no-good father deserted us, my life completely fell apart which resulted in cutting myself for the first time. As a thirteen year old dumbass, someone almost found out my secret. Someone no other from Nash. We had just became best friends that year and he and his family were really supportive of my family issues. His parents let me sleep over countless nights, as my home was occupied by my insane fighting parents. You're probably thinking "how on earth could a young girl survive all this crap without breaking down in tears every minute of the day?" Well that's how I was in the beginning. Lucky for me, nash was there to help. Even though it was a really sad time for me, I still smile at the thought of how my bestest friend ever always comforted me. Every time is think about it, I can't help but falling a little in love with him, more and more.
There was me: the crying mess, unsuccessfully trying to look and stay strong and there was nash: the total sweetheart he's always been, talking to me about how he'll always be there for me. We were sitting by this huge tree we called 'our special place' because that was our favourite spot in the world. We used to lean against it, doing our homework after school or just hanging out there. At that time, we were talking about my family issues with my head rested on his shoulder and his hand holding mine. I know it's not the typical things 'just friends' would do but that was us. I've explained alot of unneccesery details but I was just getting to the point.
That afternoon, before I met nash at the tree, I was viciously cutting my wrist with a razor blade, as my parents were taking their anger out on me, calling me a worthless ugly bitch, you know the normal stuff. But stupid me, I didn't even bother to freaking clean up all the blood on my arm so when nash saw a drop of blood on my arm and a little on the sleeve of my shirt I was forced to lie to his face. I told him some lame excuse about red paint,but I don't remember the details. I was relieved he actually believed it, but I felt like a fool. I could have told him the truth but as the selfish bitch I was, I wanted to lie in a pool of my own tears every night feeling depressed. I'm retarded in my own ways and I've come to accept them and just take it out on my arm later. But of course I plaster on a fake ass smile to please everyone and pretend I'm happy. Lately, it's gotten worse and I'm on the verge of breaking down in tears and telling nash everything. I don't know how he'll react but it's either he'll accept me and my issues or he'll be totally disgusted and decide he doesn't want to be my friend anymore. If that happens, then I'm really not prepared for it.
OKKKK HOW'D YOU LIKE IT? I know it kinda sucked but hey man I try lol. This was just the intro but the storyline is gonna be next :)