All The Pain You Caused []Hiatus/Under Editing[]

(Part 3) An Ominous Goodbye

Misery was very apparent on his face, It made her sad, but she didn't know how to help him,

"You can dry off in the bathroom it's that way, just go straight then left seodulleo ! (hurry up!) i don't want you getting sick," she scolded,

"I.. don't want to impose," he finally spoke, after nothing the whole way accept a quiet thank you in gratitude for the offer indoors "Are you kidding? you're not one bit now kaja oppa!" he sighed as she moved him forward,

He left into the bathroom & closed the door, stood for a few moments overwhelmed with everything he was feeling all at once, his eyes burned with tears, he couldn't breath, he wanted nothing more than to drop to the floor & do a silent prayer to god for saving him, then silently cry till there were no tears left, the fact that he almost died scared him,

Zhou mi couldn't see himself inflicting self harm but sometimes wondered if he would get pushed to that point... When it's gone on for this long.. he didn't know anymore.., they made him question everything,

Quietly baring they're psychical & psychological attacks for three years was taking it's toll,

He had his reasons for keeping it all quiet.., he learned a long time ago when he'd go to his elders & teachers before in desperation for some sort of help, he found out they (his bullies) did not bluff on they're threats.. so he stopped altogether,

But no matter how miserable they made it for him, he always willed himself to stay resilient,

The last thing he'd ever want was to hurt his precious mother & sisters in ending his own life, it would shatter them,

Not to mention his father, who was recently in bad health, although at times he made zhou mi felt like he was a disappointment to him, zhou mi still loved him dearly,

The emotions were getting to him now, he was completely upset & exhausted, tears silently rolled down his face, there was a knock on the door, The knock ended his inscrutable behavior & he suddenly snapped out of his despondent state,

"Zhou mi-shi are you okay..?" hyoyeon asked, He wiped his eyes and was about to reply when the cold sensation finally hit him, as he realized he was still dawning wet clothes, he slipped the gray cardigan off & trembled anxiously pulling the freezing damp t'shirt off his goose bump covered skin, he shivered,

"Yes i'm fine, he replied back, he was use to lying now, so he even sounded believable.."I'm just not decent," he added

"Lend me you're clothes i'll take them to the dryer for you" she opened the door slightly & he handed them to her,

"Don't worry about anything else!" hyoyeon said, trying to help in anyway she could, It made him smile a little,

He rubbed his arms up & down to hinder the goose bumps,

He stared into the mirror, he had a two choices, let himself have an emotional breakdown? or he could be strong & not let it all tear him apart, he took a deep breath & closed his eyes choosing right then an there to hold it all together,

He exhaled & rubbed his neck it felt good, because he felt like he strained it earlier so he gave himself a shoulder & neck massage, Closing his eyes he rubbed gentle but deeply, finally he treated himself to something soothing as this,

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Hyoyeon was busy, having already placed the clothes in the dryer, she then put out food for them to eat & searched for dry clothes for zhou mi,

"Get yourself together zhou mi, he told himself, He turned the blow dryer on, on his damp hair & started fixing it afterwards, fluffing & moving pieces around in & out of his face, feeling better but not fully, then became surprised when a elder male opened the bathroom door, "Who are you? and why are you in my house.." his eyes widen "Half naked!" he yelled,