I'm alone

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I'm alone in this world

this crazy fucked up world

and why is that

when I have friends around me

all I feel is empty space

no one's there to help me.

I feel isolated,

boxed up in a field of my emotions

can't escape because of my conscience,

it's like a fucking fence

and I'm the only fucking sheep here.

I'm in my own little world

and everyone that is around me

is so mother fucking happy

but hell no, not me

there's no one here that can help me

no one here to comfort me

so I can't even believe in me.

I've lost all my motivations

all the fucking sensations

love, hate, good, bad

it's like I'm a fucking tornado,

complete and utter chaos

and no one could ever stop me

because I'm a fucking loose animal

and I'm about to snap,

destroying the world around me

with no care for my safety

or anyone else's for that matter.

Then I'll be dead and I could care less

cuz after all that I'll be satisfied

with the destruction I brought

but also the reality

that I am actually alone now

and no one can convince me otherwise

because there's no one here.

So now I'm feeling happy

realizing I never needed anybody else

just me, myself, and I

but also maybe a nice dime.

I'm not even thinking anymore

about anything or anyone

because I know that if I do

someone will come back to haunt me

to make me feel alone or not

all over again and I can't take that shit

so now I'm walking in the darkness

can't see my feet on the ground

or my hands in front of myself

my heart is starting to pound

thoughts of my friends coming to my side

are flooding my fucking mind

and before I even know it I'm sitting at the table 

that we always sit at every lunch break we have

damn that shit isn't reality

how unfortunate for that

now lets go back to this conversation

that we're having about who knows what.

But instead I get up and walk away

from the voices calling me back

without any care in the world

and I went to do...whatever the fuck I wanted

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