obsessed at first sight (Editing it/making changes)

Chapter 13  Stella's Pov

Have you ever felt like your life wasn't worth living?

I have.

After i was brought to the hospital, i felt ashamed.

I could have fought him but i didn't.

I should have screamed, slapped, punched, kicked, or even bite him.

But i didn't.

I was released from the hospital two days ago.

And ever since i got in the ambulance, i haven't spoken.

I refuse to speak.

I know my voice will show how weak i am.

When i came home, the looks on my families faces.

They showed so much, sympathy and heartache.

I knew they knew what Ashron had done to me.

They all tried talking but i just......pushed them out.

I couldn't talk about it..........i wouldn't.

I was sitting in my room, when i heard a knock on my door.

I had a lock on my door, but i hadn't locked it.

I turned away, and faced the window so i didn't have to look at their face.

"I brought you some soup, mom said you need to eat."

Michael said, from behind me.

I wasn't hungry.

I couldn't stomach anything after that monster was inside me!

Michael stood there for awhile before i could practically feel the steam coming off him.

"You know what? I know that you think your ruined, after what that dick weed did to you!

And it was wrong i never said it wasn't.

But if you gonna be a stupid bitch!

And not cry and get over it like everyone else does than you will never fit in, in this world!"

Michael yelled, before putting the bowl of soup down and walked out.

"Your right............i am a bitch............i know.........i am so sorry." i sobbed.

It was that moment, that i decided to never feel again.

I went to the bathroom, and found a sharp razor blade.

I didn't even hesitate before i slit it across my forearms.

I moaned as i felt the sharp sting and felt the blood run down my arms.

I had to feel it again!

I repeated it over and over!

Feeling more and more blood run down my arms each time.

People have asked me Who i am.

Before now i didn't know.

I could feel the energy draining from my body, as i fell to the floor.

My vision was blurry, and i felt no pain.

In fact I felt, numbness throughout my body.

I finally had my answers.

I finally knew who i was.

I didn't care if i had to die.

I wanted to be with my mom.

My birth mom.

Carrie Lynn Ross.

I could hear people in the room.

Screaming for help they had found me.

I knew i was going to die but i repeated who i was.

"I'm nobody! who are you are? Are you nobody too?" I rasped out.

In the back of my head, i could hear i voice.

A voice, that blocked out every ones voices.

It was my mom's voice.

"Your not nobody Stella Jade. Someone hurt you. Took advantage of you."

I heard her voice say in the back off my mind.

"Yes i am nobody! I could have stopped him! But i am nothing now!"

I cried to her.

"He is twenty-two years old!

You are only fifteen!

There was nothing you could have done without getting hurt!"

She said, in an honest voice.

But i knew i wasn't pure.

I would never be pure again.

Wade would never want someone as dirty as me.

"I miss you mom!" I sobbed.

"I miss you do baby!"

I could feel myself slipping into darkness.

But before i did, i could hear her singing the lullaby she use to sing to me.

'Golden Slumbers'

Golden slumbers kiss your eyes,
Smiles await you when you rise.
Sleep,
pretty baby,
Do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.

Cares you know not,
Therefore sleep,
While over you a watch I'll keep.
Sleep,
pretty darling,
Do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.

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