An anorexics life
Ive been in hospitals and units, ive had tubes and drips. I was given the date i was going to die. I was dragged away from my family. Ive been sedated, ive lost my freinds, i have decaying teeth. I see 7 different people who poke and prod and ask questions. I was watched while i ate, i was weighed naked incase i was tricking the scales. I had weekly bloods, daily obs, constant watch. I was monitered, searched, isolated. Bed rest, wheel chair, monitered showers, ... I have lived in hell since this disease found me, i wait for when they will next admit me, i count my worth by the numbers on the scale, i have to listen to my mother cry, i take medication every day, i cant sleep alone, i cant go out alone. Im not supposed to drink, im not suppose to drive. I may not be able to have children, ive self harmed, attempted suicide, i have panic attacks, i have conversion disorder, im depressed, i have OCD, im a perfectionist. Basicly i lost my life the day i stopped fighting.
