Holiday Sadness
Why does it bother me so much?
Everyday I miss your laugh and your touch.
Why is it amplified this time of the year?
Why do I cry so many more tears?
Why does all this holiday cheer make me so angry?
And why is everybody all of a suddenly so dam happy?
Did all their problems just disappear?
Then January second the will reappear.
I guess if they want to pretend.
Who am I, to put it to an end?
I just wish they would stop shoving it in my face.
I need a break, I need space.
I miss you with every part of who I am.
I can't pretend not even for them.
This is not a happy time for every one.
Some of us just want it to be done.
There are some wounds time can not heal.
The pain is still so real.
So forgive me if happiness I can not find.
When I feel so empty inside.
But I smile and fake it one more time.
Because this is their turn to shine.
I wont ruin it for them, I have no right.
They still believe, their futures are bright.
I don't ever want them to know the pain I carry around.
I will protect them until the day somebody puts me in the ground.
By Supernaturalmom
