Dejected

See, this is why I don't like dealing with my feelings. They just keep spiraling until I just can't take it anymore. Will these thoughts ever go away, or will they always be there until I die?

"We're here!" Adam said excitedly as he snapped me out of my mind, and back into reality. I opened up my eyes, and realized we were in a parking lot, and not at his house. Confused, I looked around and saw the we were in front on the fair.

"Fucking dammit Adam. I said I didn't want to come. I hate these things." I knew my effort was no good, but I couldn't help but complain. "You know what, I'm not talking to you for the rest of the night." I said while crossing my arms and looking out the window away from Adam for dramatic affect. I heard his seat belt click and then retract back.

"Don't make me do it Blair." he warned.

What the hell is he talking about? I don't care. I'm just going to ignore him for ignoring my request of not wanting to coming here.

"Bllllaaiiirrrr." I knew that tone. He would always do that before he...shit!

"Adam don't you...." I wasn't able to finish my sentence because he started tickling my sides. I started to laugh uncontrollably while trying to get away but couldn't since I was still strapped in.

"So are you going to talk to me and enjoy the carnival?" he asked with a smirk on his face while still tickling me.

"Ok.... ok.... please stop." I managed to get out while laughing.

"Wait, what was that? I couldn't hear you." he said faking not hearing me.

"Ok! I'll talk to you and enjoy the damn carnival!!" I screamed through my laughter. He finally stopped, and my laughter died down, but my eyes where closed and I still had a huge smile on my face. I opened my eyes and noticed Adam was still leaning close to me, and our faces were only two inches apart. Our eyes locked, and I got lost in them. It was like he could see right through me and into my soul, and for once I didn't mind it. My heart beat became faster when I realized his arms were still holding my sides, and the tingles they were causing was making my stomach do flips.

Come on Blair, this is Adam. You're friend. Stop thinking like that.

"You look so beautiful when you smile Blair." he said softly not taking his eyes off me. I probably looked like a tomato after he had said this.

"Thanks." I said with a shaky breath. "So, umm, the carnival?"

He looked confused for a second, and then looked away slightly shaking his head. "Right, the carnival. Well, lets start going." he said as he got out of the car.

I got out too, and started to walk with him towards the fair. "Here let me put this on for you." he said as he took out the wrists bands. He put mine on and then his. He laced our fingers together, and we made our way to the line. It didn't even bother me anymore when he held my hand, or put his arm around me. It had become such a normal thing for me now that I actually expected it. It feels wonderful to feel so safe around him.

"Which ride do you want to go on first B?" he asked me as we made our way through the crowds of people. I looked around, and grinned as I saw the ride I wanted to go on. It was also a plus that it just so happened to be the one ride Adam hated with a fiery passion ever since we were younger.

"I need to go on the rocking pirate ship first in order to have a good time here." I said with a huge grin while pointing at the ride. I saw the smile on Adams face disappear, and his lips went into a straight line.

"Come on Blair. Out of all the rides, THAT'S the one you want to go on?" he said while gesturing to the pirate ship.

"Yup, and I promise to enjoy myself the rest of the time if you just do this one tiiiiny thing for me." I said while pulling him towards the ride. We got to the line, and since we got here fairly early we just had to wait for the ride to go once and then it would be our groups turn.