I Found God
Where am I going?
What am I doing with my life?
If I die today will I leave something for people to remember me?
Am I even making a difference in the world?
Am I truly living or just breathing?
I thought back to my life and saw nothing.
Absolutely and utterly nothing.
All this is nothing.
A party ends in a few hours.
Friends backstab you.
Movies only last an hour.
Boyfriends will always come and go.
Do I have something worth living for?
Do I have something stable in my life?
Am I a reason for someone to live?
I may look happy but I know that I do not have inner happiness or inner peace.
I ran out in the pouring rain, searching for a reason to live. I was searching for the reason of my existence.
Why am I on this planet? In this country in particular? In this family? In this school? With these friends?
The rain was heavy and I was now drenched but I didn’t feel anything. I was numb. I just want my answer.
My life is so dull.
Suddenly, I got to the beach and there, I saw the rain and the sun working together to form the most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen. I felt so close to it that I thought I could touch it.
Without my permission, a smile formed on my lips. A genuine smile. And happiness filled my heart. I have never felt that way and all this is due to the rainbow?
I felt someone’s presence. I don’t know how but I just knew that it was God.
“Live for the beauty, create beauty,” He told me.
“How?” I asked, awestruck.
“Just like the rain, you’ll have stormy days. And just like the sun, you’ll have bright days. But you have to join the pieces together and form a rainbow,”
“Love every person you meet and give them a smile that shows them the reason why they are here,”
“Show the people around you that someone cares, show them that YOU care.”
“How do I know this is true?” I asked.
“Just try,” He said “You’ve got nothing to lose.”
“The key to inner happiness and peace is love.” These were his last words before he disappeared, leaving me with a new mission and the answer to all my previous questions.
Today, I found God.
He is the rain, the sun, the rainbow.
He is in our sad, happy, and confused days.
He is ALWAYS there.
At this moment I found the key to living a worthwhile life.
The key to everything and everyone is LOVE.
Today, I found God and within him I found love.
Thank you for helping me, God.